--i LieD--

2009-08-09T04:31:00.000+08:00

Whenever i feel Zzz + haiz + gg-fied, i will always come back here to write something.

First, thanks to Weijian and Huimin for posting things which i "hoped" to hear. But not much use la, got 2 monkeys come and add on to the "suanning comments" again. Wrong number man, HL. Click on "Hum Ji Niao" and repost the address there.

Decided to remove my playlist, coz i realise the 30 sec playback thing is kinda irritating. Even i myself have to login to my imeem everytime. No music from now.

Waaa FUCK man. All my life now is surrounded by just
1) Pool
2) Mahjong
3) School & No School
4) Computer game
This is freakin...... irritating. This isn't what its supposed to be like when im 18!

Think i must make a breakthrough in my life. Change to
1) Marathons
2) Community and social work
3) Public campaigning for good causes
4) Hardcore mugging

Haiz. Feel so useless. Even feel more useless when i noe of someone called flasher loo. What a disgrace.

Why people around me always follow a certain kind of format in terms of character? Years ago, it was like this. Years later, nth much changed. Until the present, still nth changed. I rlly.... don get the rationale of their thoughts.

And its kinda shameful for me to realise that im beginning to become not much different from the rest. Im still the same as ever, always figuring out what people need. What has changed is...... I don't have any more courage to take on any action. More fearful than before, about being wrong in my deductions. Not the kind of "I want to save the world" person already. And its worrying for me.

Sit-and-watch is probably the biggest source of regrets for people ever. And it's not sensible to say that regrets always come and go. Coz it kinda suggests, people around you are meant to take and throw. That kind of idea makes life too gloomy.

I guess thats all. Getting sleepy. Continue next time.

2009-06-24T04:41:00.003+08:00

Posting again. Nah nth impt to say. Just emo-ing lol.

Everytime i emo is when im facing this computer. I dunno why. Emo in the head, and smiling in front of the screen. Sounds like some tikopeh.

Went in to Facebook to see alot ppl de photos, profiles all these and all that. (Using someone's account) I think its everyone's nature to look at ppl's this and that, and relate back to themselves. Everyone seemed to have so many photos to share. So a moment of thought came by. How often do i take photos? Issit i don like to take, or noone take with me LOL.

Even if i created an acoount of my own, how many photos do i have to put up? Flipping through some photo albums i have, all i have are photos of me when i was in Primary Sch. Now, even though we bump into each other frequently, we hardly say hi. So they aren't quite the people in my network. Posting photos of them might be quite meaningless, i think. Looking at them once in a while might give a sense of satisfaction, or nostalgia. Otherwise, if too frequent, it's going to be numb.

OK. As a good start, i shall begin taking photos when i go to NS! Hundreds and thousands of photos of sweaty bald men in green, smiling and showing their yellow/black teeth, mud stains all over their shirts and faces. LOL.

Why suddenly mention Facebook? It all started with someone introducing me to play Restaurant City. Play and play, find that this web more and more interesting. So i began to use XXX's account to play. Looked at his friends, and all these. I cant create an acoount of my own. My email is malfunctioning. Cant receive the activation email. Too bad.

But when creating, i saw that there are 58433250 people awaiting to add me. Maybe i consider creating another email add. Hmm.

2009-06-18T04:03:00.004+08:00

Hahahaha. Surprise!

I think i lost all my fans liao. Even i oso nvr visit blogs for many months le. Today just went to all the blogs which belong to ppl whom i know. Everytime i look at my com, i rmb my blog, but i jus dunno wad to say and all.

I don rlly have anithing to rant over here for now, not like the past.

Several times, i thought of declaring blog-krupt. Wanted to close down the blog. But just couldn't and didn't do it. What i have written here cant be thrown away easily like my English essays. Everything here has a meaning attached to it.

Lol this post sounds like the "last" post for my whole blog. I guess, my style changed. Not to write for people, but now, to write for myself to see. Or issit bcoz the present state is already GG-fied?

It must be bcoz im not mysterious enough. Ppl know me until they know wad im going to do, wad im thinking and all these. So there rlly isnt a point in reading wad i say here. Everything seems like a repetition. The more i try to write, the more i feel so. Same applies to the readers ba.

New people? No lah, never once thought of making my blog known to people i know from JC. Take it as a break from class politics, gossips, backstabs and all these ba. Remaining in a "可有可无" state is quite ok for me. You need to grow out of big conflicts to gain big bonds. And im not quite ok with having big conflicts with others for now. Happy with everything as it is of present.

Pretty interested. Why other people de tagboard got comments like
1. Relax, it's all over
2. Let nature takes its course
3. Some suanning comments
4. EH post leh, long time since i heard from u
5. Etc

My tagboard.
Yo Long time no see!
Wa this this song very nice.
Suanning comments

I only have "suanning comments"!

Haiz. Lol. The comforting words i need 到哪里去了？

2009-04-13T01:02:00.002+08:00

Apologies, again, lol. Btw andrew, this is the first time i visited ur blog. 13/04/2009 1:00AM. Haha. Tags again.

Things to do : tag 20 things abt yourself

1. Emo.
2. Hungry (no, not food)
3. Full of my own logic.
4. Don't like illogical people
5. I dont gamble =) LOL
6. I dont drink oso =(
7. I lied.
8. Always curious
9. Always dead
10. I never think too much
11. Im very stubborn
12. Like all men, ego.
13. Lust? LOL. Perhaps.
14. I like my dog, Johnny.
15. I think school is damn sian
16. I want alot of money to go out
17. I want to learn to cook imba-lly
18. I want to get BMW by 25 yrs old
19. My clique rox
20. Im going to go play dota le~

2009-04-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

Emo. Damn emo.

Upon finishing CT, i've made up my mind to write out all the recent mistakes i made. No matter how disgraceful they may be.

The following will be reflections on general events that passed by recently. Or in other words, reflections for CT.

Looking in the mistakes one by one. By order of which paper comes back first.

GP: D.
Essay failed word count for goodness sake. Lol. Joke.

Maths: D.
Stupid enough to differentiate 1/y as lny. Be it careless mistakes, or leave blank, both only belong to one kind of ppl. Stupid ppl. Amount of mistakes is proportional to stupidity.

50% of the class got A, btw.
D*** owned me in Maths also.

Physics (only MCQ get back): 12/20.
Poor physics, poor logic. To think i tot my physics is ok one.
7 ppl in my class got 13/20.

1 mark, 7 ranks.
No, it doesnt mean im rank 8. Everyone scored 13 and above.

Chemistry (only MCQ get back): 26/40.
Of decent ranking in class. But not of decent score. Studied for quite some time. And only this result. Disappointment. Shows lack of potential / inability to use.

Econs (haben get back)
Studied for quite some time also. Able to answer 90% of the questions. 2 question cant answer. These 2 questions weightage 26% of paper.

Excuses and excuses. Noobshit.

Disappointed in CT results. But thats not where the heaviest blow comes.

On Wednesday, April 1 2009.
One girl was asked to go to board and do one maths question. Teacher limit her to only use three lines working. She did it. Everyone is impressed.

Next, I was asked to go to board and do another maths question. In contrast with the first, I cannot do anything. Can only solve the parts where any Primary 2 kid can solve.

Teacher asked another girl to come to board and solve for me. Stood there, blank, useless, and humiliated.

But facts are facts. I indeed is dunno how to do.

On April Fools' Day, i realised how much a fool i am.

2009-03-19T03:11:00.003+08:00

Damn damn damn sorry.
I din read any blogs for like 2 or 3 weeks le. Din notice i got quiz to do.
Haha, don haf quiz then i rlly dunno wan post abt wad le.
JC is very sian de u noe.

100 Truths abt yourself.

Last beverage → water
Last phone call → One JC Friend
Last instant message → Shawn (jio dota)
Last song you listened to → Blog Song
Last time you cried → a month ago, i think

HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice → no. once oso don haf. shi bai.
Been cheated on → yes. taxi uncles all scam me.
Kissed someone & regretted it → no
Lost someone special→ yes.

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → don even have.
Laughed until you cried → don have. emo kia.
Met someone who changed your life → make me play more mahjong have. LOL
Found out someone was talking about you → no. no interest.
Have you kissed anyone on your top friends? →don understand q, but no.
How many ppl on your top friends do you know in real life? → all
How many kids do you want to have → depends on situation (LOL)

Do you have any pets → a dog
Do you want to change your name → no
What time did you wake up today → 3pm
What were you doing at midnight last night → PCC. LOL. No la, at friend hse.
Name something you CANNOT wait for → Money fall from sky.
Last time you saw your father→ 3 hours ago.
What's one thing you wish you could change → Amount of sleeping time.
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → No
What's getting on your nerves right now → nothing.
What's your real name → M. No la, whr gt ppl name is M.
Zodiac sign → Sheep.
Elementary/primary School → Unity
High School → BP
Hair color → Black
Long or short → Now abit long.
Are you a health freak → Liver going to GG already
Righty or lefty → Righty.

FIRSTS:
First surgery → Primary 2.
First piercing → 5 years old. Pierced my finger with stapler.
First best friend → A primary schoolmate.
First sport you joined → Badminton
First pet → Dog
First vacation → Malaysia. First to last all malaysia.
First crush → This is ask who or when? When is Secondary Sch.

CURRENTLY :
Eating → Air
Drinking → Water
Waiting → For downloads to be complete

YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? → Atmosphere, circumstances, conditions very impt.
Want to get married?→ Can zai shuo ba.
Careers in mind? → The Sleeping Elder.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Kissed a stranger → not even someone i noe.
Drank hard liquor → YES. AND I WANT MORE.
Lost glasses/contacts → No. Broke alot though.
Ran away from home → No.
Broken someone's heart → Dunno. Ppl nvr tell me have.
Been arrested → Arrested by teacher for ponning CCA to do similar activity
Turned someone down → Secret. LOL. WTF CAN DON ANSWER??
Cried when someone died → no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → Strongly.
Miracles → when desperate.
Love at first sight → abit.
Heaven → yes.
Santa Claus → Hey i just msn-ed him ytd.
Kiss on the first date → Im not so hasty lol.
Angels → no.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → No.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → WTF stop asking this kind of questions.
Do you believe in God? → No.
Is this questionnaire a waste of time? → Not rlly.

2009-02-02T01:53:00.004+08:00

Hey~~ Everyone happy CNY!!
Shh, don cheer too loud. Its jus a new post. LOL.

Its kinda late to give blessings though. Haha. But its nvr too late to submit ur AngPao.
E-submission is not entertained.

Its so long since i blogged, so long that i even forgot how to write a post.

First of all, apologies to all fans. I saw your 91259813059 new year messages and requests, but too bad, i was at Malaysia the previous week. Hahahaha. Thanks to all the fans who spent money to make overseas calls too.

NO!!! I dont have 幻想症！我没有！不要把我抓去关！NOOOO!

This one trip to Malaysia made me given up hope on Singapore. Lol. Life was jus too carefree there, and there are many things i cant find in Singapore, but can be found there.

As usual, the hardcore gambler lost again. But it was better than last year. Last year i lost RM200. This year i lost RM50.

Which means my luck this year is 4 times better! YES!

只要再一把，就一把，我就能把输过的全部赢回来。
我答应你，这是最后一次，我一定会统统还给你的

Ok. Dont joke le. Serious.

Being unable to get NAPFA Silver in current state is a big obstacle. Coz after As I have lots of things i want to do. So, therefore, my new year resolution this year is to...

Let nature takes its course. LOL.

Have been thinking alot these days. Yeah, pls don say i think alot everyday. By any chance, if any of you has sth u rlly treasure, pls, treasure it always.

等当失去，曾经是普通的一切便再也不是普通

老了，老了。

2008-12-27T06:59:00.002+08:00

Yo. Today will be a good day. And so will the rest of the year.
Merry christmas to all, and happy new year.

To end off this year, jus a simple message.
Apologies for the past, the present, and the future.

I'm still bothered. And will always be.
Such a pity.

2008-12-11T14:23:00.002+08:00

If you get there before I do,
Don’t give up on me.
I’ll be there when my chores are through,
I don’t know how long I’ll be.

Have been wanting to find the lyrics of this "Call Nigel Sure Will Listen" Song.
The lyrics itself already conveys wad Nigel will be ready to tell u.

"Eh ah i be there in 15 mins. Ya. Very fast one" - before meeting up
"Eh ah gimme 5 min" - before start game

The nights are so bloody cold. Im sick le =(.
Send your get-well-soon msg to 9******* (u know my number), and stand a chance to win great prizes!!

1st: PS3
2nd: Nintendo Wii
3rd: PSP

*Terms and conditions apply. Prizes are subject to changes. All rights reserved.

Yay. Everyone's gonna holiday le.
Do the things that you have been longing to do all the while.
If not, life will be shackled by regrets.

Jiayou.

2008-11-29T04:19:00.002+08:00

Poly kids kuai dian holiday~
Primary school kids / Sec school kids kuai dian approach me for tuition~.

No work, no money, noone free to go out with. Haiz.
Ben lai want to do the coded post today, but in the end find that it will be too GL and decided not to do it.

U all heard of Crimson room?
No, not a movie or book or anime or wadeva. Its just a flash game. Go search for it and slowly play ba. Wahaha.

I solved Viridian room by myself without any help leh. Sibeh pro sia. Wahahahaha.

Sibeh sian. I asked many people, do you have any question to ask me? I will answer only the truth. Nobody has anithing to ask me sia. Lol. Yuan lai im so exposed. Haiz.

NO! ITS NOT BCOZ PPL ARE NOT INTERESTED!

Recently dreamt alot. Din dream of getting killed liao. 2 memorable ones will be a fire at neighbour house, and my house got robber come in.

First dream. Fire at neighbour house.

The time is 12am midnight.
The door wasnt close, only the gate closed.
Smoke came out from underneath the neighbour's house.

Mum: Haiz, 对面的小妹妹又再煎鸡蛋了
Unknown Neighbour (not the kena fire one): Aiyo, wheres this smoke coming from.
Me: 怎么办？
Mum: 再不去撞开门，小妹妹就要被烧死了
Me: *shocked*
(Even more shocked when wake up. Fry egg will burn to death one meh)
Mum: 快点，去我的 bag 拿 fire extinguisher 给我

The dream ends here.

Got ppl de bag inside got fire extinguisher one meh?? LOL.
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The second dream.
Afternoon 3pm.

*Ding dong*
Robber: Hi, 我是blablabla集团来的，是来检查您的 window grilles 有没有符合标准
Dad: *Opens door*
Robber: *Comes in and gong jiao wae*
Robber:*Draws penknife*
Robber: 不要乱动，快点，我要拿整个家全部的　ＤＶＤ还有 VCD
(WTF, not money??!?!?!)
Me and Mum: *Goes into room search for DVD and VCD*
Me: *Secretly still keeping some PS2 DVD which i still wan play*

Robber already sit down at sofa doing nothing. Dad dunno go where liao.
Suddenly, handphone ring. I went to toilet to pick up call.

Me: Hello
Shawn: Hello, 我起来了，你打给我做么？
Me: Aye, 你hor, 快点帮我报警。我家进贼
Shawn: Keh si one right
Me:　没有！　快点，安全全靠你了 *hang up*

Meanwhile, Robber and Dad are drinking coffee and chit-chatting.
Time is 3:40pm.

Mum: *hands over box of DVD and VCD*
Robber: Oh 谢谢，你看，早一点这样不是好
Dad: *Laughs*
Robber: K la, 我坐坐到四点就走了

Dream ends here. Lol.

Thats all, next time got more interesting de i zai share ba.
No, no wet dreams.

2008-11-11T18:16:00.002+08:00

Its a long time since i posted. Haha.

The advent of a whirlpool of events. I guess everyone's lives will begin to climax from this month onwards. Well, for some, a "high" climax, for some, a emo climax. Should be a very memorable... Nov and Dec.

Im in holidays. Wahaha. Recently went out almost everyday. Today morning jus came back from a overnight bbq session at East Coast. Until today, din noe that my class so "on" one, hahaha.

A play on us by heaven. Initially, got 18 ppl. 1 left due to urgent matters. left 17. The fire din start for the whole 3 hours. And even when it finally started, it was a weak fire. Food cooking rate very slow, then alot of ppl have to go le. We started a fire again, and wtf, the fire was like so big lah. The chicky wings, 3 mins GG already. Lol. So in the end, only those who stayed behind get to eat the majority of the food. The night was spent with Bridge and Indian Poker.

Lol, it was a good and fun event la, but i dunno how to put a vivid description. This bbq not organised by me, lol, and i dont think i will be organising one. Kinda tired. And kinda poor.

November, i guess is the month where everyone begin to get motivated about their own goals and begin to put action. I still don have anything to work for sia. Money, perhaps, lol, but not motivated to go outside and search for job. But, watching people pursuing their goals can sometimes be fun, hehehehehe.

Memories. Regrets.

2008-10-26T14:24:00.004+08:00

杀气

Ahhhhh!! WHY!!! QUIZZES AGAIN!!
Hey, i found out sth. This quiz tt im tagged for right, i do before le, but it was very very long ago. I think my answers aren't changing, if changed, i put in italics k?

Answer The Following Questions:
1) The person who tagged you is?
God.

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
Once good friends.

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
helpful, capable, nice, hardworking, unique
(should i change this? LOL)

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
This year's birthday present

5) The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
Don’t need reply

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you would?
I would what?

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she will have to improve on is?
Dunno, but must find a way to maintain peace.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Keep quiet.

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
Too many, yet unknown.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Do the quiz

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
Good and well-liked by many.

12) How do you think people around you will feel about you?
Jialat~

13) The characteristic you love of yourself is?
Alot.

14) The most ideal person you want to be is?
The likes of Jianhui. LOL.

15) For people that care and like you, say something to them.
Something.
Lol. Ok lah, thanks.
What?
You still want more?
You got inside this category meh lol.
Got ah?
Sure or not?

2008-10-20T23:39:00.003+08:00

17 October. Very very happy. But din post it bcoz i dedicate 1 post for the quiz thing.

Why? Lol. Coz that which gave me courage to live on, boost my confidence and let me believe in myself once again, came.

It was something which i needed the most but was never given to me.
It cannot be given by guys.

Wahaha, so happy.

2008-10-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

Deng deng deng deng! (No, not the wedding one, its the "YOU ARE GONNA DIE NOW!" de)

Actually i dunno why, ever since go JC, nth much to share with you all le. Its not my style to write wad i do, but this year i think i posted quite alot on wad i did. Lol. Perhaps i became more introvert le... hmmm.....

What what! Nobody ask u comment.

Now, for quizzes.

QUIZ 1:

Step 1: Put your iTunes player on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 32 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

Using my blog playlist WARNING: My blog playlist, either is Jap song, or Songs with no lyrics. Only a few got lyrics / Chinese Songs.

#1. Hajimete atta hi wo Ima mo oboeteiru?
(Do you remember the first day we met even now?)
#2. 请让我，靠近你轻轻对你说
#3. Nan ah jig do.. Midul su eobt so.. Niga.. Eobt nun.. Se sang ee ra myon
(Sry, no translations)
#4. (No lyrics song), erm... i dunno wad instrument. Behind got bells chiming?
#5. Kitto kitto dareka ga
(Translation.. erm..... Surely Someone?)
#6. You're my life, my love
#7. (No lyrics song) Start of song = Someone yelling "yeaaaa eeeee ahhh ooooo"
#8. Konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo surechigai
(The season in which the powdered snow dances always passes by)
#9. Nuhn ahl go eet ni nahn mal ya
(do you already know about me?)
#10. Kimi no sugata ha boku ni nite iru
(Your appearance look like mine)
#11. I get the feeling that the ceiling is falling
#12. Chongmal noman Saranghandamyon
(No translation again, sry)
#13. 当你关上了门离开，整个房间
#14. 我讨厌阴天的风，冷得那么刺痛
#15. In you and I, theres a new land
#16. 这双手，如果可以，永远握紧
#17. 嘀，嗒，嘀，听天空在哭泣
#18. Chim nan woong, ya ya gu shiu li xia loh yong (sry if the HK - ENG translation very lousy)
#19. 心很空，天很大，云很重
#20. Eien ni tsuzuku ai no uta (no translation)
#21. (No lyrics song) Dunno how to describe either. Middle part uses alot of drum. Lol.
#22. Haruka ni sotto yurameku urei Kattou no kioku ni ugokasare
(Moving the slowly unfolding, distressing troubles from afar that were in the past)
#23. (No lyrics song) Starting is piano.
#24. Mune no pisutoru narashite Yake ni kodou ga jamasuru
(The PISTOL in my chest sounds out; my heartbeats are interfering awfully with me)
#25. Itsuka mita yume
(The dream that would come true someday)
#26. Tatoeba hitorikiri de
(Even if for instance you)
#27. Saigo ni kimi ga hohoende
(What you offered straight to me )
#28. Sukima nai nyuudougumo no shita
(Under the thick clouds)
#29. 回忆里想起模糊的小时候
#30. Ryuusei no ai ga kimi ni isshun no hikari okutteru...
(no lyrics)
#31. (Special song) No need guess, its Memoirs!!
Actually is coz cant find lyrics, lol.
#32. 我问为什么，那女孩传简讯给我

OK!!! Next!!

QUIZ 2:

Copy to ur own journal.
Erase my ans n write ur own.
1. Use the first letter of ur name to write ur answer.
2. They have to be real places name n object.

1. Four letter word
- P....... LOL. Pond?

2. Boy name
- Patrick

3. Girl name
- Patricia

4. Occupation
- PCC
Lol. No la. Psychologist?

5. Colour
- Pink oso cannot, purple oso cannot.
Pale blue? Lol.

6. Something you wear
- Pants? Lol.

7. Beverage
- Pepsi

8. Food
- Pork??? No. Lol.
Pasta.

9. Place
- People's Park Complex

10. Something found in bathroom
- Poo?

11. Reason for being late
- Poor old grandma need me to help her cross road.

12. Something you shout
- PCC!

13. Font
- Papyrus

14. TV show
- Phua Chu Kang

15. Song Title
- Peng You?

LAST LE!!

QUIZ 3:

Give a friend's name starting with each of the letters A to Z accordingly.
Then write 3 facts about them!

AhToo. Tall, skinny, rich.

Bird. Cockup, mugger, dota-freak

Carlyn. SHORT. Attached. Outgoing.

Dion. SHORT. Attached. Outgoing. (Same sia)

Enlin. Humorous as ever, good in academics, honest.

FooShiJunJustin. Music talent (euphemism). P-freak. Poor.

Ghan Yean. Mature. Nice person. Nice to suan also.

Hongwei. Daring, Confident, Humorous.

Izni. Literally strong, extrovert, outgoing.

Jiawei. Talented, Intelligent, and JIAO!

Kendrick. Quiet, Athletic, Hardworking.

Lendl. Lan de, 翻版的新好男人，attached.

Myself. Perfect, Divine, Flawless. (LOL)

Nobody.

O (O is Yishun, btw). "Normal what", 18 years old, lame.

Ppnldd (Weijian). Smart, humble, humorous.

Qingping. Only one i know tt start with Q. Cute. Attached.

Ruiyan. Long time no see, dunno how she changed, blur?

Shawn. Heck-care kia. Dunno still very poor or not. Cock also.

TeoboonkiatZacharias. Hardworking, humorous, sporty.

UncleLimYouSheng. Perverted, Violent, Good in academics.

VincentSeowSoonBeng. Kong Cum, Siao Gi Na. K la k la, good-looking k?

William. Cool, Pon-ster, Heck care.

Xin You (Edwin). Tall, Muscular, Emo.

Yikai. Game-savvy, rich, good-tempered.

Zaiyeong. Sporty, full of potential, attached.

YAY!! FINISHED ALL 3 QUIZZES!! WTF!!! 3 HOURS!!

What a joyous day.

2008-10-06T04:39:00.001+08:00

Ahhh, fed up.
Just so fed up.

2008-09-28T05:03:00.002+08:00

I BET YOU GUYS WAN TO SEE MY NEW POST SO BADLY RIGHT!

LOL! YES!! NEARLY 1 and a half month. No posts. Hahaha. It was deliberate one lah, jus to see which fans are still loyal to me and come in here every here and now. Though the answer is obvious right.

First and foremost, i've been tagged. Saw it sometime ago but was lazy to put up a post.

1. [First Name]
Actually, i live until im 17, i still dunno wad does first name means
Anyway, by reference, lol, i know le.
M.

2. [Were you named after anyone?]
Yes. My name was given after my brother. And generations before oso.

3. [Do you wish on stars?]
S'pore can see star meh?

4. [Which finger is your favorite?]
Thumb. Most important for cue bridging.

5. [When did you last cry?]
3 weeks ago, i think.

6. [Do you like your handwriting?]
Yes

7. [Any bad habits?]
Used to curl hair. Now lesser.
Constant bad habit = slack.

8. [What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?]
Its a po....
No lah. I don have any cds tt make me embarassed

9. [If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you?]
It depends, depends if after i become another person, im heng + fortunate + lucky + blessed enough to meet myself.

10. [What is the last song you heard and your favourite line in it?]
Ruby Tuesday - Good bye.
Eh... chorus bah.

11. [Are you more concern with the past or future?]
Past.

12. [Do looks matter?]
For me, yes.
For others, okok.

13. [Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?]
No. I mean, absolutely stupid?????
Omg tts not an adjective for me. LOL

14. [Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?]
No.

15. [Do fish have feelings?]
Yea. They turn white with fear when steamed.

16. [Are you trendy?]
No.

17. [How do you release anger?]
Quarrel, scold, da xiao sheng.

18. [Where are your second homes?]
School.
Yea right. Lol. I dunno, actually.

19. [What was your favorite toy as a child?]
Bomberman figurine. Lol.
The one where behind got a button and allow it to shoot out a marble tt one.

20. [What is the most attractive thing about yourself?]
There isnt.
I mean, everything is sufficiently attractive. All very good, so no "most attractive"

21. [Have you ever been on radio or television?]
No.

22. [Do you have a journal/diary?]
Blog is one?
Written one, don have.

23. [Do you use sarcasm a lot?]
No. =) <----- already sarcastic

24. [Where do you wish you were right now?]
Chalet!

25. [What do you look for in a guy/girl?]
You mean how to differentiate? Then that will be the.....
Lol. Erm, must like to smile. =)

26. [What are your nicknames?]
*Rank from most commonly used to least
M, Aizai, Mehmeh, Xiao Pang

27. [Would you bungee?]
No.

28. [Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?]
No.

29. [What are you worried about right now?]
Promos.

30. [Do you ever wear overalls?]
Men got overall de ah?

31. [Do you think that you are strong?]
Im.... just full of potential. LOL

32. [What's your favorite ice flavor?]
Ice? Sngbao?
Milo.

33. [What's your favorite colour/s?]
Black and white. Zui jin begin to like red.

34. [What is your least fav. thing in the world?]
CUCUMBER.

35. [How many wisdom teeth do you have?]
Issit proportional to my wisdom? If yes, then all bah.

36. [Are you in love w/ anyone?]
Now, no.

37. [How many people have a crush on you right now?]
Need to ask one meh, wth. Come, show me your fingers.
What? 10? Tts like 10% of the total lah.

38. [Who do you miss most right now?]
Soonbeng. I 1 week nvr see him liao.

39. [Are you single?]
Its jus up to me lah.
LOL.

40. [5 People you'll tag?]
DON WAN TO TAG. NOBODY DO DE.
ZZZ.

Ok yay! Now, proper post.

First, happy bday to er ge and er ge de friend!
Wish both of you chang ming bai sui, shi shi shun li, kai qiang zou huo, zao sheng....
LOL. Hao la, nth lah, nth. Kai ge wan xiao only.

For the past week, was attending to my promos. Lol. Was more serious than usual. But also too late le la. Know how to do also no use, speed not enough to finish. I noob.

That week was very stressed up. Totally lost myself. Everyday emo about why nvr finish paper. Then the emo brings more emo and think about other stuff. Anyway, its over. Lots of thing for me to settle next. PW, Chalet. Haizz.

Lets wait till all of us exams over, and we shall party~!

2008-08-16T02:47:00.003+08:00

Hey yo. Very rare right. 5 days passed and i posted. Lol.
Coz i noticed a big chunk of tags that i haben reply to. So i shall reply here bah. Reply in tagboard will be too messy and too troublesome.

Yishun tag 1 and 2(refer to older messages): ty, now got newer skin. Lol. Aniway, no comments for the decoding part.

Carlyn : U rlly go decode ah lol? Tot very obvious.

Series of L tags: Liddat then fun ma. Aniway now no more JH house le =(. I have done your quiz. And i written ALL TRUTH LOL

JJ: Its not toa payoh lol.

Sjw: Sounds suspicious but nvm, lol, trust tt u wont tell ^^. ya, you put in alot of effort too.

Varieties of birds: 1st should be the person himself. 2nd-4th dunno. Lbird and bluebird obviously the same person. Think Longbird is shawn

Wenjie: Sure bo? Lol. U r gold baton bcoz of ur 引以为豪的部位。
Gold is to signify its POWER and VALUE.

L: Ok lor, Thank you.

Justin: You r the "sweet lies" kind ah?

Yishun: Ya ya ya talk talk talk.

nigel: laugh wad laugh? si gi na O$P$

JJ: Ya cock. Dont even noe will got mishaps or not.

:(huimin : Sorry lah read wrong. Walao liddat secretly reveal 2 extra qualities. Haiz. Dunno how many people will change their character to fit in. LOL

Yishun: Ignore lor. Nobody in my tagged list do. Bo bian, i too responsible + guai. Then as for you.......... ^^.

drew: actually u got visit i oready very honoured. Also guilty. Why? ^^.

ice: Wth i nvr intended to make it a secret. Alot ppl oso link me. Haha. Eh i got link you lor, and yet u dunno my blog.

=(huimin and jas: AIYA! IS YOU ALL GIVE DE PRESENT CAN! Dua lah, li hai lah, haha. Wad sounds familiar. Zzz.

NAT han: You banana! Xiang jiao ren! "Eat potato!"(say in Hokkien). How can compare with a zhen zong CHINESE!

2008-08-11T18:24:00.002+08:00

Haiz, no more fen si le.

Haha, my tagboard sibeh sibeh empty. (Pls don cock up ani Meh Meh FC). So long since i posted, about half a month?

Recently just tidied up my room. Coz i moved from my old room to the current one (officially). So all my old stuff cleared up. While sorting out, in the box of many many stuff, found alot of things that make me abit nostalgic.

1st is the Inter-House badminton competition, 1st runner up. LOL. That was like... so cock lah, they randomly find ppl, then find me, then i go represent. Not rlly the winning cause.

Then, found the photo frame that used to be on my table all the time. Coz i moved to the other room, i forgot to move it to the new room. Inside got alot of photos. 4p2, 01, NPCC. Alot alot of memories.

After that, found the "black angpao" that oso used to be on my table. Inside the packets of chilli/tomato sauce dunno rot diao liao or not lol. Decided to use it as special container to store all my cards. No, not poker cards, lol.

Then found this personal diary which i used to have during Pri 6 - Sec 2. In 3 years, only 3 entries. Wah, read and read, found that I..... rlly sibeh good in Chinese. LOL! (Dont try to guailan). All quite... emo. Lol. And quite funny too, to read all these kind of stuff.

Got alot of things lah. Broken specs, D&T de wooden frame, Jiawei they all gimme de christmas present (a white penholder), CDs. Too many to mention, so i only talked about those more worth-mentioning de.

Haiz. Back then, for a moment, i feel like i went back to the past. Many memories. Perhaps those will be the key ones in my whole life. Still clinging to alot of things, i realised. Ya, dont worry. Its not that.

*Walao eh, say until so bu qing bu chu, no wonder all ur fans all gone lah.

Too bad, haha.

2008-07-21T01:46:00.002+08:00

Sian wo~~~

Lol. 3+ days ago (3+ coz now is 1.47am), was Sb's birthday!
And as usual, we din disappoint him.
K la, perhaps the figurine. Lol. Sry sry.
Nxt time get racket for u k?

For all those who have given me advice,
Ty. Lol.
I will try hard to bai tuo my "Emperor" symptom.
And improve on the "Initiative" part.

Mid year results come out le.
As usual, my results........
Always prove to me tt i'm "late-game"
Its not time for me to own yet.
LOL!

It has come to the point where the "events" graph come to a downslope.
1. XXX
2. Shawn has gone bankrupt
3. Yishun everyday wan hoot ppl
4. Sb L1R5 not close to nigel's
5. Nigel is busy emo/mug/flirt

Actually, 3, 4 and 5 isnt rlly main. Coz we will still be going to study out aniway. But our kim-moh no money! He adult-fare, gam expensive. Let's wait for his "Huat-Day"

Fuck. Every year got this kind of funny things happen.

Recently talked to alot of ppl. Heard about their life stories, their tears, their laughter. And im angry. Coz...

IM STILL SINGLE!

*Emo-ed.

AHHH HOT LIAO! BANKAI!!
HAHAHA!!

You yuan ren, you yuan ren~
Ni zai na li~~~~~
Wo hao tong ku ah~~

No, i din drink anything. lol.

For those who dunno, Johnny became my dog.
But tts not the reason for tt "overhigh" part.

Ming Tian Hui Geng Hao! TMD!! FU~!

2008-07-07T11:44:00.003+08:00

Got tagged again. IM FREE TODAY! Why? COZ IM A YOUTH! WAHAHAHAHAHA!

No Youth Day for Poly kids. U shall have yours on October 1 =(.

8 qualities. Hmm.

1. Obviously, must like me.

2. Looks = Can see. Can see = can liao.
Although i is cannot see de.

3. Preferably, a free thinker.

4. Someone who wont overshackle me, lol.
Lemme go out with friends once in a while.

5. Someone who wont break up just for funny reasons
(No examples of reasons to be given, in case it clashes with real-life examples)

6. Most importantly, Natural.
I can see that the you over here is you.

7. Actually, im not the mugger kind.
(Yea dont come and say "you don have to say 'actually' ".
So i hope she's not a mugger too. I have reasons.

8. Be nice to people, in general.

Another quiz. Time check IGNORED!

Original rule: Write 20 things abt yourself. The time (in mins) u spend to do so = the number of ppl u tag.

1. Im often sian
2. Im always sleepy
3. Im a slacker
4. Im a free-thinker
5. I like my dog, Johnny
6. I belong to night-life kind. 7-7 lifestyle.
7. I like to play pool
8. I like to play frisbee
9. I like Naruto
10. I like Bleach
11. I like to be with my clique
12. Im LATE GAME.
13. Im single
14. Im in pain
15. Im in agony (14 and 15, lol, don think too much abt it. Its the same as 13, actually.)
16. Im jus joking
17. Im beginning to get bored of this 20 thing quiz
18. I have to go PW meeting later
19. I have to attend school tmr
20. Im impressed you read till here.

8 ppl. Haha. Die.
1. GOLD BATON KIA!
2. Dumbbird
3. Little/Emobear
4. Shawn
5. Sb
6. Mugging SHIT
7. Hongwei (tts if u see this)
8. Huansong

2008-07-01T00:15:00.003+08:00

And im 17!

The following ppl rox! Omg they simply rulez! They are : SoonBeng, KhengLi, Carlyn, Huimin, Nigel, SeeJiawei, Zach, Yikai, Qingping, Jianhui, Justin, ZaiYeong

Omg! May good fortune be with u, tests all full mark, walk on the road got money kio, suddenly got girlfriend/boyfriend, no misfortune for life, everything do smoothly.

And..... Fortunately nobody sux.

May this year's July be a better one, please.

Post edited on 2 July 8.19PM

2008-06-22T01:37:00.003+08:00

Was reading the old posts of several people. And i came to the conclusion.
Im rlly rlly rlly sry. Coz i just realised that i missed diao a tag by god.

OK! New post! Excited?

Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Dont read the questions until you have named the 20 people.
At the end of this, choose 8 people to do this.
not in order.

*Im sry, i had to read the questions before i know i got tagged. But i dont rmb them aniway la, haha.

1. Katsuge (he now tokin to me)
2. Shawn (Another one)
3. SoonBeng (Also)
4a) Jianhui (All the bbq ppl will now appear)
4b aka 5) QingPing
6. Wenjie
7. Kendrick
8. EmoBear
9. Dumbbird (or maybe long, blue, L, No, Tiny, big, Smart)
10. Dion
11. Zaiyeong
12. Lendl
13. Yihfang
14. Jasmine
15. Huimin
16. Justin (although ur body is not there, ur spirit will always be with us)
17. Ghan Yean (EH i wan see u de sia)
18. See Jia Wei
19. Yikai
20. Meh Meh FC

How did you meet 14 [Jasmine]?
Using my eyes.
No la. Same secondary school, same sec 1 class.

What if 9 [DumbBird] and 20 [Meh Meh FC] dated?
I dont even know if they r the same person or not.
But well, wish them all the best.

will 6 [Wenjie] and 17 [GhanYean] date?
YES YES!

Describe 3 [Soonbeng]
Described before le. 5 adjectives. Need me repeat?
No?
Too bad, i shall repeat.

Siao Kia, Kong Cum (thanks AGAIN for providing me with the first two)
Si Gi Na, Mr Dog, L-your-silangtao

Decribe 7 [Kendrick]
Mr. Marathon. Damn fit, very cool, but abit too quiet and introvert.

what would you do if 18 [See Jia Wei] confesses to you that he/she likes you?
*Chooses to remain silent so tt i don get gl by him*

what language does 15 [Huimin] speak?
Must ask Toa-Peh-Kong. Close relatives.
The holy language?

who is 9 [Dumbbird] going out with?
Hehe. L,M,N.
To be specific, EL, EM, N

how old is 16? [Justin]
We see him to be 16 years old.
But actually he practises the Tong Zi Gong
So his age actually is numerous times of that liao.

when is the last time you spoke to 13 [Yihfang]?
Yesterday during bbq

who is 2's [Shawn] favourtite band/singer?
Dunno. Think is the Cao Ge.

would you ever date 4 [Jianhui]?
OF COZ! Ppl got money, got height, got looks, got everything.
Too bad, we are normal guys.

would you date 1 [Katsuge] ?
NO!

is 19 [Yikai] single?
Hehe, shld i say the truth leh?
Actually i dun noe.

would you ever be in a relationship with 11 [Zaiyeong]?
Friendship, of coz!

school of 3? [Soonbeng]
Wu Zhong

where does 6 live? [Wenjie]
2 blocks away from me.

have you seen 2 [Shawn] naked?
Yawn~. Slping is much more interesting. LOL.

OK! So far i only seen this tag tt i missed. Any tags tt i missed, pls leave a msg on the tagboard. Haha. Sry sry.

2008-06-15T02:42:00.002+08:00

Yo! Miss me ba? Haha, i know, sry. LOL. Erm... this year nvr post as frequent as last year bcoz i find tt i don have much to say now haha. I mean, im still going on with my happy happy sad sad life.

Eh, recently sibeh sian leh, lol, call...... my hp if you are bored. Its 24/7. Ya. Oiii don say until like i despo liddat lah. Is kind, not despo. LOL.

This holiday... nth much happened. The same golden and dark moments. Got 1 chalet, my JC class de chalet. Well... The idea of BBQ came across only on tt day itself de afternoon. Suggested by who? Planned by who? Things bought by who? Fire set by who? Food cooked and marinated by who? Cleared up by who?

Haha. We have to thank heaven for creating such a nice human being to exist and be part of people's lives.

I expect people to be thinking : " =.= wth say so long just to inflate urself and make urself so great "

Eh sia lah is rlly great leh! At abt 12am, the class went for a midnight movie trip, then i nvr go, stayed up with another classmate to bbq finish the food and clear up, also set up fire so tt the food is kept warm. We await their return, so tt they can still enjoy food after a movie trip.

I almost din eat any food, and after the whole bbq ended, i finally went up the chalet, and the girls from downstairs came up much later after eating, and to tell me that ALL THE FOOD IS THROWN AWAY.

Well, its ok, life has its ups and downs. Honestly, i very angry. But haiz, its all the past. Say more, and i will end up facing the same predicament as wad i used to face. But im evil lah, hehehe, only the ex-BP de know where my blog is. The rest of my class dunno. Ya. I trust them.

So far, 2 BBQs le, haha, i haven personally organise one this holiday. I dunno, i may organise, or i may not. Still mentally exhausted, i dunno why also, no problems for me to think abt, and yet im exhausted just facing the blank mind. Perhaps a little nostalgic, perhaps a little of regrets.

" For the beautiful today, i can give up tomorrow. But to strive for today, i lost the chance to strive for tomorrow. Thus, i can only allow success, not failure. " - By LittleBear

" Hopes very high, Fall very pain. Hopes not high, Fall also very very pain. Want me give up, can meh? " - By EmoBear

" HAHAHA! " - By DumbBird

Quiz

2008-05-30T00:22:00.002+08:00

May bird shit fall on whoever tt post me to do funny funny quiz.
LOL! Nvm, my fans will yuan liang you de. Afterall, i've no spoken for so long. Its time for my fans to see wad i have to say again. Drown within my text~ LOL!

1. What’s the definition of good friend means to you?
People who im willing to be with and willing to be with me

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend?
Friends

3. Who is the person you trust most?
To be frank, i have no idea too.
Changing the question to "the group of ppl", then i can ans. My clique lo.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
On the outside, yes, too much.
On the inside, no, too little.

5. Who is your idol?
You wan noe who my idol is ah? Not you lah, wth, HAHAHA!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes, although i don go find it.

7. What is your goal for this year?
Be more attractive and learn to sien zha bor. LOL!
*Warning: KP-ers SHALL DIE!!

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes

9. Have you broken someone’s heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?
Perhaps. To what i know, no.

10. What feeling do you love most?
When im being respected.

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
You wan to noe ah? Try confessing lor~.
HAHA! Erm.. so long as she's willing to be with me.

12. List some best moments in life?
In literal sense - Admiralty Chalet and 2007 Clique Chalet
In "my" sense - When i know i spotted the wrong topic for SS paper. Best ah tt one.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
To be true, i dont.
Bcoz i choose to put more value to some.

14. Between money and love. Which one ?
Love

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Trust to others and to yourself

16. Do you love anime?
Quite. Not crazy over it.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
Siao Kia, Kong Cum (thanks for providing me with the first two)
Si Gi Na, Mr Dog, L-your-silangtao
LOL!!

18. What have you done to please yourself?
Go hang out lo.
To Sb: Yea right wad listen music play badminton. More like P......... sth sth.

19. IF you had one wish right now, what would you wish for to come true?
I wish for a house where my clique can stay tgt in and everything inside is Free!

20. What do you want most for your birthday?
I want a girl. Ehehehehe.
No lah, lol, just anything will do.

2008-05-19T14:27:00.004+08:00

Yo man! I just came back from Admiralty Chalet!!!
(eh wth admiralty got chalet one meh)

GOT! Fridge auto reload Green Tea and Chrysantemum White Tea.

LAN = Left at night

Saturday: Me, Nigel, Shawn, Jianhui, Sb(LAN)

Sunday: Me, Nigel(LAN), Shawn(LAN), Jianhui (Almost LAN), Sb, Yishun, Justin, Huimin(LAN), Jasmine(LAN), Qp(Almost no need LAN)

Ok la quite fun. Talked through alot of stuff. JC share JC shit, Poly share Poly shit, BP share BP shit. Sad tt nvr play mahjong =(. But its ok. Saturday got the Night Tiko Session + 7 Consecutive Dota matches (for Nigel). Talked abit about recent happenings ^^.

Next, Sunday, started off by goin to Marsiling to buy steamboat stuff. Over budget is i pay one leh, sia lah, wei da right. In the end during steamboat, found out tt got too much food. Coz we got many people who are trying to 修炼成佛. Ended up playing with ZJMM and the Promotion Test Game (Best game ever LOL). Leavers shall die!! Midnight talked through alot oso. Abt the past, present and future ^^. Its a mass reflection time. (Although Justin outside emo-ing). No la, coz we inside dark dark, he wan see anime, then will disrupt our darkness.

Woo, nice one. That marks our maybe-the-last trip to Admiralty. Coz our Jianhui has just recently bought a bungalow and intends to move in tgt with.........

No lah you rlly think he can buy bungalow meh? He's moving to.. XXX tgt with his family. Location cannot be disclosed to prevent future disturbance.

How nice to have a chance to be all in our own world. Our very own world.
How nice to know, that we can actually be in the same world.

2008-05-07T20:09:00.002+08:00

I get darn irritated when people assume tt my posts have relation to the things tt happen in reality.

Its kinda interesting, to me, to speak my views over funny funny issues. Yea, so quit the fat hope of trying to put yourself as the main character of my show over here. Neither are you the director, jus watch wad the show has gotta tell, self-prediction and assumption is highly non-recommended.

Again, to say all this, doesn't mean someone assumed so. Trust me, just get the literal meaning, coz tts the fullest meaning.

2008-05-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

Recently, i have been exceptionally puzzled about the topic of "Help".

Many people told me, if ppl needs help, they will come to me. If not, i wont go kpo.
So, offer help to those who ask, and offer none to those who dont ask.

Lets call this group of people as Group A

Someone said something that i thought was quite good. If the person needs your help, no matter how small, its significant. If the person dont need, how much you help, its insignificant.

Interesting. How do we determine if ppl need help?
Determine by if they come to you?

-Read on if you think the same way as Group A. Otherwise, i think you r quite fine-

Say, a classic example of you and your friend running on a running track. He falls down, bleeding. Leave him there and continue running? Or help him up?

Very naturally, people will tend to help him up. But did he ask for it? No? So why you help then? Issit bcoz of your hidden desire of "Aiya, if i don help, it will cause a bad impression, better not la, for my own sake, help him lo, make him have better impression"? Or issit simply bcoz you feel that he needs help?

I guess you are the latter, arent you?

Another classic example. You see a stranger, who is blind and walking with the aid of a stick. You see him walking towards the direction of a pillar. Stop him, or just let him bang the pillar?

You will help him, right? Coz its only natural.
Up till now, its all because YOU feel that he NEEDS help.

Next, this is slightly different. Your friend has no idea that a part of his character is no good, and often it leads to your other friends in gossiping and badmouthing him in one way or another. So, help your friend by asking for a change and hinting him that he's in a bad situation, or just keep quiet?

To this, i dare not put an assumption for your answer. It strictly differs.

1st example, you have 0 harm done to yourself, 2nd example, you have 0 harm done to yourself, 3rd example, theres a slight chance tt you might harm yourself.

So, help people only when it does not put you into any kind of sacrifice?
To those who refuse to help, i can understand why. I mean, he din ask help from you, so no reason to help him, right?

Now, the last example. You have a classmate who always get prejudiced views from your other friends who you know better, despite the fact tt this classmate din do anything wrong. Tell your friends that they are being unfair, or keep quiet and join them?

A hard one eh? Or issit actually simple? Of coz no lah, i mean, lets face the truth, hes a stranger leh! How can i upset my friends bcoz of a stranger? BESIDES, he nvr ask me for help. Yea, he rlly nvr did. So why help him? No point sia. He nvr ask, later he say i yue bang yue mang. Cannot la, cant help, he nvr ask.

Have you just discovered the wondrous excuses you can make up to hide and cloud your ugly self?

2008-05-04T21:10:00.003+08:00

Tired.

Long time nvr post. Coz im going speechless liao lol. Dunno wad to say le.

Homework got alot. Yet i din do any. Suddenly feel very... guilty.

Maybe will go into Mugging Mode very soon. LOL. Eh dont kaopeh and say wad "got this mode meh".

Every month, every week, every day, pass by like any other day. So.... bored.

Class very zai, Wednesday jiu first class outing liao, go watch movie. I din go watch, primarily bcoz of the lack of money.

Time too short. Yet too much time wasted. Haiz.

Emo bcoz of the loss of direction in life.

Theres a trend for coded posts, so i decided to put a coded line here.

"If yOu dEcOdE tHiS YoU aRe StUpId."

try. its quite hard. Letters in caps and in small letters may represent different stuff.
Hint: the fool-stop oso got a trick.

2008-04-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

SOOO long nvr post le. Haha.

Life has gone much to a downslope (no, im not emo now). Just very bland. Except weekends and also times where Me, Zy and Dion scored too well for GP tests.

Saturdays - AT house
Sundays - Library
Other holidays - Town/Bugis
Mon-Fri - School (except when we scored too well for GP tests)

Default schedule LOL.

Time flies. Its April liao. And im still the slacker.
Must mug liao lo, JC very fast paced.
You dont get me saying "fast paced" often.

Poly de going to open school liao lo. Looks like their timetable is not as free as i think.
Good luck wo, must go U seh.

Tuesday is E-learning day. Im free. Who wan jio me out?
HAHA

2008-04-02T21:02:00.003+08:00

Wtf, why why is this guy writing in webdings?

Sian, I have to copy and paste everything and put it to proper font

Ahh, the first proper line I see. What is this guy trying to hide by writing in webdings?

Put so many space for wad? I have to scroll and scroll, so mafan.

Below don’t have secret. Below rlly don’t have secret

K lah, actually is have.

Eh wtf quickly tell me the secret la, so much suspense for wad

K. Here comes the secret.

April Fool!!!

2008-03-26T20:15:00.003+08:00

Suddenly, i have this question in mind.
How do you measure one's sincerity?

Does immediate apology = sincerity
Does no immediate apology = no sincerity?

Sth tt can be done with consistent memory work
Whats the meaning then?
Sincere apologies? Rlly?
Repentance MUST always be shown with apologies?

We always say sorry
But only a few times we really feel tt we owe them one
Many times, just saying like its programmed

But generally, ppl do feel irritated if theres no apology received
Do you?

Dunno why, i see no meaning in these so called "common practices"
So common until if one nvr practise it, sure get condemned
So common until nobody feels anithing from it.

JC

2008-03-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

Wa sian ah, almost no free time at all. JC timetable, monday 4.00pm release, tuesday 6.00pm, wednesday 6.00pm (due to cca), thursday 1.30pm (best best!), friday 4.00pm.

Wth man. And its said tt thursday is the day teachers stuff their remedials in for us. Zzzz.

Ok, my new class. 21 boys 5 girls. The supply and demand dont fit leh, obviously a shortage. You know, unlimited wants, limited resources. Haiz, haha. All the girls look the same though. Very sadly, this class is Channel 5 de (except for the ex-Bpians which takes up 7 of the population). Dion is Welfare Head!! HAHAHA! Welfare = Class welfare aka Functions. Die lo die lo!

Me? Heng i din get allocated to any titles. Oh, the selection for the titles is simply a random pinpoint on the classlist. Whoever kena, whoever must do. Ya, noone want volunteer mah. Aniway, form teacher is good. He is old, budden unexpectedly a very joker joker kind. Very intelligent too.

Generally, i've yet to form a complete impression of each individual in the class. But well, quite good, just tt the bonding has to wait to come. Or maybe, its JC, everyone busy studying, and we end up just a class by the name. Haiz.

No more actions/words from me liao. Learnt my lesson. At most i help out Dion abit. No more... standing out character.

I guess, my haven remains the same location. Don't think i will have much affections for ppl i know in JC. Perhaps.

Unless of coz, someone special breaks it.
Then i wont be single le!

Just joking~.

Randomness

2008-03-11T02:20:00.002+08:00

Yo! Lol, changed main blogsong again. Bought a new bag!! Quite expensive to me lah, but well, who cares. Not a Saigong anymore.

Im on March holidays! Free mah? Bored mah? Call me lo! Call me out, call me talk, all can!
*actually very despo over here*

Haha. Aniway, i dunno lah, but i feel tt i begin to think lesser. The default is, i will still notice alot of things. But the extra ones, i wont rlly go in further to investigate le. Perhaps to the common definition, im still thinking too much. But well, noticing and figuring parts of people is always part of me. A very... hard to kick habit.

Sry lah, although alot of times i make mis-assumptions. Be sure, if it has anything to do with accusations, i wont put things to conclusion myself liao.

My life is quieter now. But the things i want is still there. Perfect.

Nth to say

2008-03-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the long wait. Lol, coz i rlly have nth much to say to my fellow fans.
Thanks for the constant support though, be it spams, be it finding joy and laughter through my tagboard.

Everyone seemed to have sth to do, yet i dont. Haiz.

Hopefully March holidays will have a chalet again. Dunno if i shld take initiative to organize or not =\. Im a careless organizer.

Officially in Cue Sports le! Seniors were very friendly and very ON! Lol, got into the right CCA liao hahaha.

Someone remove me of the post "President of the Lonely Men Club Committee".
PS: Fuck those who keep spamming "Im gay"

A new skin

2008-02-21T20:05:00.002+08:00

Soongbo, so long liao finally a new skin. Why today so free har? Lol....

Nth much to update, its the start of my PJ life. Looking forward to the rumoured "stressful" life.

New blogsong, new skin, new haircut, new life.

(Ya ya ya act so chim, punchline somemore, go and die lah)

By Fans Request

2008-02-17T17:34:00.004+08:00

Haha! Finally my fans asked me to post. Haiz, no choice, post la post la.

Actually dunno wad to post also. Dont like to post wad i've done in the past few days. Anyway, Dion, Lendl, Zaiyeong and Justin pls come and claim your gums.

Achievements for the past few days : Lost 150RM through gambling of 2RM per match. Lost sense of money. Learnt the basics of pool. Never go Ahtoo house for 2 weeks.

Pah, school is gonna open, dont even noe which school i gonna get to. Hope is PJ, coz i don wan wake up too early, and also im more familiar with the teckwhye district than AJ de area. Several ppl asked me if i went to remark my HMT paper. Haha, i din, but well, its ok~. Lan jiu shi lan, no point finding ways to tell myself im li hai.

Feb 14, i was alone =(. Only went out with 2 guys, zzz. But got 3 girls jio me out! Wahaha! Nono, not Miss S / D / A / C-Dshi / N / ET / QH. 3 Chio one leh! But aiya, i rejected them la.

Dont arm chio too much when u 3 see "3 Chio one leh!". My trademark sentence "There r 100 over ways to say one thing, only one way is the truthful one". ^^. Sian diao liao right? Haha

Nth much else to say leh, coz my mood now.... very blank. Not sad not happy not angry, wadeva oso don have. Zzz

Failure

2008-01-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

It hurts, to fall from the top, to the bottom.

And yet i was calm enough to say tt "it's okay"

Ironic. Regrets. Doubts.

But what about it?

The road is still long

Still got As, and U, and also work.

Pain. Failure.

Life goes on.

Nostalgic

2008-01-23T04:28:00.001+08:00

Yo! Haiz, so many fans asked me to post, bo bian. Hahaha! Anyway, today's my last day of work. Din work for very long, only 4 days nia. =(. Worked with Justin, Hongwei, Dion. What work? Hehehe. Anyway, never be a waiter if you want a holiday job. Just find a job tt got to do with computer. High salary, low workload. Haha.

Well, out of us 4, 2 are already leading a good and everything-they-have life。One, our not-very-tall, handsome guy. The other, our tall, not-very-handsome guy. Definitely, not me and Hongwei, coz we're both tall and handsome~~~! HAHAHA! Well, seeing one having a partner makes me happy for him, seeing the other..........(to be continued)

The world is such an irony. Haiz.

All the world is a stage, and all the men and women are merely players~!
And cut! (Cut wad???)

O level results coming loh, nervous? Yeah man, nvr go up stage i will lao kui sia suay tuo ku zi one. Well its ok, i have everyone to share the same excitement/anxiety/terror/horror/fear with me. Anyway, i more look forward to Nigel's English results. ^^ Sakae!

Changed the 1st song in my playlist~! Do As Infinity de song~. Should be famous for her Fukai Mori, coz Inuyasha de ending is tt song. Well, i like Enrai better though. A sad song. Yea man sad again huh? Haha.

"So... what are you emo abt now?"
"Dont emo here and there leh, like me liddat."
"Ai zai emo again hah, call me i also emo."
"Wa Mello, emo again ah, this time is wad?"
"Hmm... you want to talk? I see if i can call you later"
"Everyday emo emo, go play ur dota la"
"You emo wad lah, i owe ppl so much money oso nvr emo"
"HAHA! Oi u haven fight with me 1 on 1 leh"
"Meh meh dont emo~ ^^"
"O.O Serene rejected you again?"
"Oh? Interesting"
(Apologies to the rest whom i cant mimic)

Replies. I've turned nostalgic.

Evil Promotions

2008-01-14T18:15:00.002+08:00

Wah lao eh, so long nvr post, noone come here and tag "post leh~". Sian diao. Haiz.

Hmmm, its too not my style if i post what i do for the past few days. Lol. These days, totally under no stress, haha. Interested in having a life like me? Come, withdraw your JC application now! As its our (more like my) promotion period, we will be giving a free cookie to whoever that withdraws!

Haha, sound like evil promoter liddat. No lah, my life, isnt tt carefree as i thought it will become. You know, problems flow in before you can even take in a deep breath and relax. Haiz, especially for me, 这个没有，那个没有. Nono, wad i meant was not tt i everything also dont have. Zhe Ge and Na Ge means 2 things, just specifically the 2 things. Wad things leh? Interested? Come, SMS your queries now to 96****** (you shld have)! As we have yet reach the promotion period, there wont be any cookies, but well, how important can a cookie be, when compared with an opportunity to ask me things!

The recent overhigh syndrome has been acting unusually strong within me. Several ppl received my morning harassment msg. Haha, sorry, too high. But well, for how long can i still send harassment msges? For some, i can still be confident, tt i always can. For some, i cant, or maybe, from the start i already cant, its just me who thought i can.

God Bday

2008-01-03T01:34:00.001+08:00

Yo, hehe, one for one

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
GOD/WORM TAY HUIMIN~!

Agony

2008-01-02T00:23:00.001+08:00

Wahahaha! My playlist! Done it in the midst of a dota game with L, Watari and Near. Agony is a song tt zaiyeong recommend me one, lol, a very nice song. Perhaps i post lyrics again?

Agony - Kotoko

The dream that would come true someday
Only becomes a faint, unheard mutter
Wandering while inside the light of the night
Soon those eyes will open it’s fate
At least, yes, only now...

Feeling down after it didn’t happen, I hang my head inside the night wind
Tears Moonlight Overflowing from my palm
What do you want?
My lips uttered in the darkness

That smiling face which pierced my heart when we met
I want to protect it 　within the agonizing, crushing pain
I had embraced our fleeting promise

Just to be close to you
Just to be with you at the same time
Returning distant memories, although sorrowful, they are making me warm
Within the ever revolving thoughts
Will our peaceful end come?
The repeated question dances in the heavens
And changes into the light of dawn's sky

Everything is an illusion, they're gone as soon as they appear
My fingers that dispose my evil thoughts are entangled with a colourless chain
Which loneliness braided as much as I struggle

My heels are like cutting through the wind
It's too cold now "It's because you’re here"
But I can't let go of the other words that has fallen into darkness

Just taking a breath
Just to feel the same pain
Little by little, happiness gathers into love
Is what I finally realised
Because in the eyes that rests on my frozen shoulders
I have found the one I want to protect
At the next dawn the fragments rusted with regret which I've recieved
Shall turn into light

Just to touch each other, just to have thought of that happiness
Welling up inside
Even if we parted for a moment, becoming a bond that will never vanish

Just to be close to you
Just to be with you at the same time
Returning distant memories, although sorrowful, they are making me warm
If the guidance within these etched symbols
Ever fails again
The moment we meet again shall bypass the memories of a thousand years
And change into light

---------------------------------End------------------------------------------

School's gonna reopen soon.

Heaven

2007-12-30T03:44:00.001+08:00

Yo! Today is another day, tt brings us nearer to the end of 2007.

Changed blog-song. Lol. I got nth to post, post the english translation of my blogsong? Coz i now just found it nia.

Ayumi Hamasaki - Heaven

What you offered straight to me
With a smile for the last time
Was just so beautiful
That I gave way to tears

Surely, that day
The two of us touched love

We sought for each other
Lost ourselves at times
And found each other at last
So whatever result may be waiting for us

It's nothing but
Destiny

la la la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la la

In the sky you set out for
Stars are shining tenderly upon me

Stay by my side, my love
Crossing over time and changing your shape
You see? The future we haven't yet seen
Remains here like this

Stay by my side, my love
Crossing over time and changing your shape
The future we haven't yet seen
Remains here

Trust me, my love
You live within me
So I'll never
Say good-bye to you

Surely, that day
The two of us touched love

-------------------- End -----------------------

Everyone around me has something to do.
All striving for their own targets,
Or keeping their own treasures well.

Im still alone.
Still alone.
Alone.

Holiday Fun

2007-12-27T23:06:00.001+08:00

Hey! Lol. Im tired. Dont feel like posting about wad has happened.

Clique chalet turned out well, but my spaghetti turned out disastrous. Blame not the wok, blame my skill. Haiz. Kiang tio ho, mai keh kiang. 1st day, rainy bbq, everyone remained high though. 2nd day, the spaghetti day + kallang stadium day. Lol, hokkien mee at kallang stadium was nice. Had interesting chats at bus no.2 though. Btw, bus 11 rlly does exist!! It does not sarcastically mean your legs. 3rd day, few ppl went out to party, the rest went to feast! Wasted ah this day, rested for too long. Cooked pizza, and learnt bridge. Hehe. Bridge rox! 4th day, ups and downs.

Later is bbq. Ahh turned out quite un-high. Im part to blame, coz i wasnt tt high either. This time din do work, played more instead. Supposingly, i was secretly planning this bbq to be sort of a last gathering so tt ppl can finish their unfinished words. But well, plan fail. Haha.

After bbq, Sb and Zy came to my house and stay. Had a long chat (Ahh, tai hao le, finally a chat). Haiz, Sb, go and die lah, me and Zy both agree to your death.

I dunno wad to post, not in the mood to post. Very tired, since when am i not tired? Too much work to do? Nonono. Its just the withdrawal symptoms for strong addiction of sleeping.

Last, i owe apologies to many. Sorry to DaGeDaSao, for me not to even ask you out to the bbq. Sorry to Dion, for keep bugging you this and that, although i know you r busy for these few days. Sorry to God, for all in the past. Sorry to Jasmine, for a stupid stunt before the bbq, and of coz, all in the past.

Sorry.

Sian

2007-12-17T00:17:00.001+08:00

Zach's nick coincides with my thoughts.

In an instant, everyone got so close together. After a few days, everyone's distant again.

Nigel's post too.

Its amazing how strangers become friends and then more than friends, before going all the back to being strangers again.

But tts not rlly all of my thoughts. Something else is taking the bulk of it, ironically.

Its time for me to rewatch Deathnote.

4p2

2007-12-16T00:42:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... Im quite sorry for the long wait for my new post. Shall i post about 4p2 chalet neh??? Lol.

The people who came was fewer than expected, sorry lah, i know i organise one then no appeal. Haiz. Sad lah. 1st day, i came late, in preparation of Neko's present (And tts also why Noob came late to Seoul Garden). Took a cab to Sentosa, damn expensive, but well, got to bring icebox, so bo bian =(. By the time i reach is already 4.30. Everyone's down at the cafeteria helping out with the marination, We started fire early than expected, and the whole bbq ended later than expected.

First night, it was the FFA hours, which means, do whatever you want hours. The boys enjoyed PS2 gaming till 3.30 then slept, but got 2 non-boys came inside and dragged PS2 hours to morning. Lol, then we wait for people, before beginning 2nd afternoon de 1st programme, which is.......=P don want say leh, who ask u don wan come =P. We had fun though, Hongwei's group came first, zzz, then we realised tt all the groups cheated here and there. Haha.

Followed by that we went to the beach. Funny, 2 balls got stuck at the coconut tree. So damn tall, but the smart ppl decided to take the wooden spars to bring the ball down. Banana climbed all the way up a LifeGuard Chair and couldn't reach. Zuokun went up a rock and reached. ^^. Zuokun became a facility people must have when playing ball games at the beach. Hehe.

After that i went for work, so i dunno what happened. Sth to comment abt is, our cls de ppl became more open and zai. Wa sia lah everyone oso jump in the water. The boys jumped in when i not at the chalet. Tts what i heard. Ya, so i escaped it ^^. After that came back, very tired, and they jus came back from dinner. They went to watch Songs of the Sea. I din, coz at work. Hehe. Everyone is tired, as expected, so the Nightwalk was cancelled. Abit disappointed at first, but everyone was quite high. Things went very smoothly.

Third day, almost everyone slept. Woke up early to clear the chalet. Clear le jiu check out, even at checkout everyone is still quite high. Went to near Vivo de hawker to eat. Followed by tt was CSC Pool+Lan. 7 ppl went in total.

In all, the chalet was a successful one, with the help and cooperation of the class. Maybe this isnt the last?

Sorry, my post looked quite bland despite me repeating tt the chalet was nice. Coz im feeling empty now. Haha.

我的人始终是太多缺点了。

2007-11-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hehe! A short post.

LOL, have fun watching.

Changed from rewatching Naruto to Bleach. Lol rewatched Naruto too many times. Haben rewatched Bleach. Brings back memories, coz i din like Bleach at first.

Its the middle of the midnight again.

Sleep LATE

2007-11-25T05:53:00.000+08:00

Hehe! Heh Keh is here! Lol only some people knows wads Heh Keh. Actually its a nickname L give to me, in replacement of Hatake Kakashi, shortform is Heh Keh! Heh is same pronunciation as Prawn in hokkien, while Keh is same pronunciation as Fake in hokkien. Fake Prawn. Haha.

Omg today at AT house realised tt my blog title was liddat. Lol. Din notice my template changed my title. Well, will change it. Not exactly raining in my heart. As JJ said, im not Ichigo lol. Coz Zangetsu say wad i hate the rain, rain falls terribly easily in this world when you're sad. Can you imagine the horror of getting hit by the rain in this solitary world? Its from the episode where Ichigo's fighting Kenpachi.

Anyway, looks like alot of people are down these days. Haha. Mr Prestissimo, cheer up. Although i don't rlly like your style of carrying THAT out. Ya, relax, yours is 2, not 7. Or you want 2 + 7? Hehe.

A change of blog song! Lol, long time since i changed, coz i like my previous blog song rlly lot. Changed to this, may not appeal to all, i must say.

Tts all! Heh Keh everyday sleep so EARLY = die. But i always see someone online and nvr sleep one. Mostly the same person. Lol, whoever it is tt online until so EARLY, slp LATER. Ya. Not 6am, but 1am. 6am is too early.

What can a 16 year old boy be doing when he doesn't sleep at this hour where everyone slept?

Im rewatching Naruto again, LOL.

Im M, not L. HAHA!

Prom

2007-11-20T14:06:00.002+08:00

Yo! Lol. Deleted previous post. Previous post was a reply to someone. Well, found no purpose to it, reply lai reply qu, i don understand you you don understand me, wads the point? Anyway, yesterday was prom! Everyone was quite uniquely dressed. Everyone de hair pattern sibeh zuey. Ok la, everyone looked good that day. Really! Mafia boss say one, got fake de meh??!

Eh... overall the food was satisfactory, programmes lineup was good as well. The choosing of prom king and queen turned out to be more funny than expected. Luckily its not sabotage, but got list beforehand. Lol, last part was what disco dance, everyone inside dancing. I was outside with a few people. Lol, no interest in dancing. Ya then got 3 illegal immigrants come here and try to sneak inside.

Better than expected lah, coz i originally not very inclined to go. Wear until so formal =(. A tiring day, but fruitful. But lol, my plan din succeed at all. Ya only 2 people knows whats my "plan". Well sad lah. 痴心妄想，haha.

A new blogskin. Hope everyone likes it.

Crap

2007-11-17T02:01:00.001+08:00

嗨大家！有想我吗？如果你有想我，那我也一定在想你。如果你没在想我，没关系，我也会在想你。

他妈的 why the intro of this post gam gay ah. Lol.

Ya la i bet tt many ppl miss me lah. Haiz. Recently abit high. But still abit down. Exams over liao, nth to do, eat full nth to do, dunno why, 就 tot of alot of 不好的回忆. Abt how several conflicts came by. Abt how many of these r exactly solved. It leaves me having to be able to work with lesser people. Regrets, but what about it?

是很悲哀没错啦，可是又怎样呢？

Haiz, in the short 16 years of life, committed too many mistakes. I was thinking of how to prevent it.

1. Show lesser of myself, be hypocritical, show only the good, 做作
2. Go for a change

I dont like the idea of 1. But circumstances force me to want to take 1. Coz 2 is very..... weird. Or lets just say im one tts reluctant to change.

Of coz theres a number 3. Tt is, let it jus go on, don care abt it, just let conflicts hit you like speeding vehicles. Apparently this looks very very attractive.

Some things i rlly rlly don like to say, and don want to say. So pls dont read it if you dont know me well enough. Its rlly not very pleasant content, easily misintepreted and taken into account. K ah, so if you dont know me well enough, can don scroll down le

Ok. Sometimes im thinking, i indeed make alot of mistakes tt i shldn rlly do. Question is, who doesnt? Not giving excuses like "since everyone make mistakes, i oso can." But was thinking, say A is my friend/family/wadsoeva.

Having A as part of my life, definitely, there will be ups and downs. And someday, say, i made a mistake, and A was very angry with me (or even worst, choose not to show it, keep it inside, and change impression)

Yes, i know, i shld apologize, so i did, tt is, if i know. But well, if A rlly think tt i deserve a lesson/punishment or something liddat, my thoughts is, have i rlly demanded a lesson/punishment before? Eh... lesson/punishment includes things like changing of impression. Im quite confident to say tt i havent rlly even demand for something if someone did sth wrong to me. But why? Why do i have to specially do something to earn back everything? Why others need not?

Is it something took for granted, or what? If the fact is, A managed to calculate tt I've done more wrong than A, question being, how does A know how many wrongs A did? 是否是我太开，A 所犯的错都被视为无？

当你对人的印象转坏时，当你想要别人补偿你时，扪心自问，他有没有要你补偿过，有没有对你反感过？

This is something i feel. A is an inexistent person (not a symbol, representative, nickname) Ya A very ke lian, always used by me as a "human figure"

Im sorry for being unable to produce a humourous post to brighten up everyone's post-exam mood. Wait till my mood brightens ba lol.

High post

2007-11-09T21:14:00.001+08:00

Yo its me again! Long time never hear from me liao right! LOL sounds like writing gong han. Huh wad han? (No offence, guailan content).

To Nigel: Wth are you thinking by putting ur blog on wordpress? Lol. Goondu. Hehehe. Relax lah, if we rlly wan tag you so much, we would have early created a www.nitrogen-nigel.blogspot.com. (<---hehe this sounds real right) Although its not too late to cre8 one now hehehehe. Looks like many ppl have compiled their "after O level" list. Maybe i will compile mine at the end of the post.

No! This is not the English version. Chinese one. Extra funny.

Anyway i've oready had a kickstart for the party craze! 2 Mahjong sessions at XXX house liao! Wahahaha! 1 trip to Queensway also! Bought a jacket although i din wan buy anything tt day zz.

So far only one person questioned me about the flower-sickness. Lol. Although i go talk to many people about it. Kinda...cured le bah.

让我们 Get High! WOOHOO! LOL!!! Get high bah!

Ah, a sudden inspiration. You can see how meaning of same words differ.
Before O Lvls : 让我们 Get High! WOOHOO! LOL!!! Get high bah!
After O Lvls: *Receives result slip*. Haiz, high liao lah.

Choy! High wad high.

K lah, begin compiling my "after Os" list bah.
1.Sleep enough
2.Mass party
3.Achieve my goal of "stayin outside for one night"
4.Get a good Prom
5.4p2 chalet planning
6.Chalets!
7.Go out to walk at night for a few times
8.Close my eyes, enjoy some silence
9.Put down the stone in my heart
10.Refuse to entertain ppl who ask "wads the stone"
11.Refuse to entertain ppl who sa jiao for me to say
12.Refuse to entertain ppl who say "Very good, fren so long liao you liddat, we 4 years of frenship bai jiao liao" coz they wan noe wads the stone
13.Camp near the drain/river and save people
14.Take photos
15.Plan for corporal punishment of birds (LOL!!! K la k la, wont do ok?)
16.Get a girlfriend (Lol inspired by D****stairs and One******) (L****l also has to pay responsibility)
17.Forget abt getting a girlfriend (Pls don try to say tt you already got 7)
18.Watch the movie "Hero"
19.Ownself go malaysia to meet cousins
20.Get drunk

Dunno, so far the list only got liddat lol.
Lol tts all, i wan watch Chu Han Jiao Xiong le.

Nose block

2007-11-04T00:34:00.000+08:00

Yo! Haiz, my fans de group getting smaller and smaller. Even when i sick until cant breathe by nose, only a few of my fans sms me get well soon or whatever. Ahh well, it's not too late to send it now.

K la jkin. Aniway, Os are coming to an end. To me, 06 Nov = end liao. But some still think tt 12/13 Nov is the official ending date. Hehe. Dunno what im going to do after Os, i cannot go work, coz my December is kinda busy. So my free time only got November and January. Who will wan employ someone for 1 month nia. Haiz. Well, it's ok then, November will be packed with the organisations and the party crazes.

As Os are coming to an end, it also means it's the last time we wear the school uniform. The idea doesn't sound depressing, but meaning of it does. Many say, keep contact after graduation. Hopefully. I would probably stick to my gang for a long while. The others, i dunno. Im just someone who cant accept give and take, come and go.

Ahhh, flower-sickness symptoms have been stronger and stronger as Os come to an end. What is flower-sickness leh? Only for the trusted to know. But i guess it will find its cure, when the new begins.

Hopefully all of us can complete their unfinished stuff and fufill all their ungranted wishes, before it's too late.

Reply to huansong

2007-10-28T23:57:00.001+08:00

WTF! Now then i realised i was tagged by Huansong! Omg my dear pls dont be sad. I will give u my dearest replies here, will make sure that i bu chang you enough with my answers.

Answer The Following Questions:
1) The person who tagged you is?
Huansong. My good brother. Xiong Di.

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
情同手足

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
helpful, capable, nice, hardworking, unique

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Lemme go his house for the 201 Xmas outing.

5) The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
All. Ya. All of his words.

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you would?
Can, but i dont think he want, right right?

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she will have to improve on is?
Agree to question 6.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
No! Impossible. My good brother.

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
No! Impossible.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Help him complete this quiz with the best answers i can give.

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
A nice guy. But open up your thoughts abit ya? Dont always make me read you.

Special section: Words to say to him

Hey, 4 years of friends seh, lol. Although im quite the outcast for the past 2 years. Well, we become brothers right, when we reach Sec 3? ^^. Let bygones be bygones, bury the hatchet mah! Lol. Its sad tt you r one of those who understand me the most in class. NONO! I dont mean "its sad bcoz its you". What i meant was, i expect some others to do better. Well, nvm, shld treasure what i have. But well, you slacked alot ever since you got closer to me eh? Sry. But well, i kept your secrets well din i? Hehe. You also became more extrovert, right? I quite sure i changed you one way or another, LOL. Good luck, for the coming Os, and for the future endeavours. Remember, it's not the end.

To all readers : I got a new post below lol.

Drama

2007-10-28T01:44:00.001+08:00

Hehe! Im here again!

(*Background: Booooooo~~~~)

Haiz, lol. My fans group drop alot liao seh. More "anti-M" than fans.

Aniway, everyone seem to have things to say abt the Os. So... i oso post my comments bah.

(*Background: Booooooo~~~~)

SHUDDUP! Ok. Err. The two practicals... titration got the most unique result. Well nvm, physics, curve become line. WORST is i draw curve firs, then erase to draw a line. Haiz, fate zhu ding de. =(

Now, the three papers. Amaths... quite easy lah. Din get full marks though. Coz calculator press wrong. Haiz. Complacency. Chem.... the chem paper which i did the smoothest. A few errors, but other than that, quite sure that will ace chem. History... spotted topic. Only one in school to study fall of communism. And Gorbbie came out! K la, at least, wont fail, perhaps a B? Must pray hard for SS.

Lol, nth much to add, the exams come too smoothly, and makin me more and more slack. Slack until i neglectin tutor responsibility. AH too is the new tutor for SB, lol, sorry, i have no methods to handle SB, while Ah too handled him very well.

Sorry to AH too also, for making you sick and flunk your Geography.

Now about my Msn nick....

(*Background: Booooooo~~~~)

*Fires pistol*.

Ok. I dunno lah, i dun wan put any Mihael Keehl or Hirako Shinji (the bowlheads). Abit childish, to put cartoon ppl in nick. And im not even like them at all. I dunno wad to put, first i put "blank", then "M", with a lame PM, then now is "Drunken Spirits". Lol, perhaps it will change and change, according to my mood. Although ppl will haf a hard time identifyin me.

Haiz, Os quickly end bah. Lots of things i want to do. This burden is dragging me too much. I wan organise chalet quickly! Very excited lol. I wan holiday for me to slack! Lol. Aniway, sry ah, din send anione "Its finally the Os, good luck" or similar sms. Lol. Thanks though, to those who wished me luck.

Hmm, since i nvr send sms, i jiu say it here bah...

(*Background: Booooooo~~~~)

*Acts pitiful*

(*Background: Booooooo~~~~ [louder])

*Fires pistol again*

Haiz. Its been four years. We've all gone through thunder, lightning and rain. Where our fates go, this exam will determine alot. Whether this exam goes well or not, we decide. Whether you want to keep what you treasure in your hands, you decide.

Its not the end of everything, be it exams, or friendships. You pass this exam to go to the next exam. You pass this stage of friendship to go to the next stage.

Good luck, be it for those who want to attain great heights, or those who want to succeed in the challenges posed by time.

Score your goals like Chelsea (Lol coz tonite chelsea won ManCity by 6-0)

Os

2007-10-22T22:03:00.001+08:00

-Deleted bcoz my blog song changed again~. Lol. Its jus introduction for my previous blog song-.

Its the Os, lol, everyone work hard bah.

Friends and Foes

2007-10-15T21:59:00.001+08:00

Wtf im very very dulan lor. So many people received 番薯苹果苦瓜 sms, yet i dont have. Zzz haiz. 看来 my 粉丝团越来越小了。。。

Ben lai want to post a depressing post. Budden, well, Youth should be the prime time of life, shouldn't let a few things bring my dynamic self down. Seishunnnn Banzai~~!!

Haiz, sound more and more like Gai liao. Dunno lah, who ask me itchy hand go cre8 so many troubles. Its ok, things are coming to an end, left with only a few months, just struggle it through and get done with all of it.

Should i be thinkin this way? Actually i lied, hehe, im not thinking this way at all. Bo bian, too inflexible, things tt remain important to me remains so, clinging on to it. Call it self-deceive, self-console, i find myself living happier being a liar.

I jus think... my life becomes valuable and important when people come into my life. When i have people i treasure, people i want to protect, tts when my life becomes important. SO sometimes i dont even noe, im more important, or all the ppl around me r more important.

Tts somehow why i dont like the sentence 多一个朋友，好过多一个敌人。 When you have more people in your life, the most important ppl in your life becomes not so important anymore. Im fine with havin more enemies, if having more friends will mean tt the most important becomes less important.

多一个朋友，不一定好过多一个敌人。
不做朋友，不一定会做敌人^^

More friends, will mean a higher demand for your priorities. Whether to prioritise these, or priortise that, its hard to make a decision. When a decision is made, those tt din get chosen will feel hurt. So when you decide to run both ways, you find tt there isnt much priority given afterall, ending up with all "good friends", rather than a clique, along with a few "ok friends".

Whenever someone wins, someone will be hurt.

Be the loser, to win greater good. Tts how life works.

Blues

2007-10-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

Ah, well, someone told me tt my previous post looked too fake. Its kinda... a waste of time, if ppl wan to think too far. I guess, there isnt much time left, so, dont waste time tryin to find a hidden purpose.

Neither do i got time to cock up a purpose.

Today went Vivo with 3 buddies. Lol sorry for wasting time to persuade me to do sth. But well.... mistake is i make de, so i guess i shld rlly make up for it. Its such a dilemma. There is a way out, but some ppl will have to compromise for it. I dont think its nice for ppl to compromise for my mistake.

Perhaps its too much of my nature to cock up troubles and do stunts. Sorry to all.

Thanks to Watari for persuading me for repeating for 30 mins, persuading me, even going to Vivo with me, disrupting your studies. Thanks to Lawliet, for sharing sorrows with me. I agree with you, it's oready graduation, why still cock up so many troubles, cant things stay peaceful and good as it is before. I've rlly got no answer to tt. Sorry too, for being unable to protect the prolonged friendships you always longed for.

Once again, Anime spree. Now is Deathnote. Anyway, my blog song now is the song Misa sang as she passed the streets. A really nice song, short and sweet. Also from Deathnote Soundtrack III.

Yes, and my Chalet Organization is formed. Hopefully i will work well with this team, the last time i work as Functions Head. Also the first time lah, coz im quite the slacker who talk only nvr do anything. Ya. Apologies to 4p2...

No more autoplay~.

Apologies

2007-10-07T02:09:00.000+08:00

Ahh its me. Yes, today, quite depressed. Eh... coz i was kinda exposed to the 2 sides of the story. And well, i guess, I owe Wenjie and Yihfang an apology.

Details i wont say much, coz i shldnt rlly say much. Budden, it seems tt preaching and insensitivity are still the black spots of my character. I tot i erased them, but well, they came back again. Gotta redo everything again....

These few days also got alot of stunts happen. Including the Sentosa issue, and this issue. Since this one is sort of settled, well, i jus keep quiet and dont go cre8 more trouble next time. Coz from wad i was told, it seems tt there r alot of miscommunications in between, therefore resulting in the assumptions of inexistent stuff. Sorry, if i rlly did look like what u tot i mean.

Logically i should jus let everything flow, since everything will go on smoothly. But it seems tt i dont want to do so. Haiz. Always hand itchy butt itchy go meddle with this and tt.

Starting to become weaker and more a perfectionist, cannot rlly stand a mistake or a failure.

Anyway, we've finally graduated. All the best to all. The road is still long, but i wish u luck. (Im not VP)

=(

2007-09-30T23:04:00.001+08:00

Yea its me again. Removed Mello's theme coz i like this song better. Sounds very noisy at first. But the more u listen, the more u feel the song ^^.

毕竟大家只是16岁

Alot of people questioning about this pm of mine. Someone even tot tt someone confess to me. Lol. I dunno if shld explain or not.

It simply means, we're still young, it's too early to decide what our life means, what our life is like.

Yes, nothing to do with legal age.

Anyway, during weekends, went to Malaysia to attend wedding dinner. Me and my cousin were drinking. He told me this:

My theory is, ppl fill for you to the brim, doesn't mean you have to drink it all.

Interesting.

没能力去控制，就别想去拥有。
毕竟大家只是16岁
要掌握生活，太复杂了
干脆让一切飘着，顺着走
过着16岁该过的生活

Far from perfection

2007-09-27T23:58:00.001+08:00

MELLO's THEME IS FINALLY OUT! WOOHOO!! Actually got 3 themes, one that is more frequently played one (the noisy one), this one. The last one very weird, like doesn't belong to Mello de liddat. Anyway, this theme rox!

Unlike Near's 3 themes, Mello's 3 themes HAVE NO REPETITION of melody and tune. Near's 3 themes are just the same song played in different tempo. Sad lah.

A fan of Mello, no longer Mello. Im still too far away, lol. Like ppl always say, im the version of Mello who ate too much chocolate. Well, lol, true. But not true also, I don't match him lah.

A brave young lad, smart and always striving to be the best. Puts others before self, using self-sacrificial to solve the case and protect friend's life. Admirable.

Im still too far away to such a profile~.

中秋节 with SG and ASG

2007-09-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yo! Yesterday was Mooncake Festival. 月圆花好，肚圆不好。Lol lame.

Involved Parties : Bear, Dog. Human was absent bcoz he cant come =(

3 ppl, 3 box of candles. What we do? Stunts, lol. Sb was forming a sentence, while me and Yishun formed a word. I din take a photograph of Sb's sentence, but i did take a photograph of the word me and Yishun formed. Not for below 18 though =).

Lol. Maybe its obvious, maybe its not. Btw behind us were a family of 6. 4 children. So we din dare to light the candles up. Lol.

Quite a fun experience. The sadded guy SG (got reason), and another sadded guy ASG (no reason), along with me. Lol. Im not sadded =(. Well... SG rlly seem quite moody that day. I dunno what to say, coz I've already said my piece the day before. I'm not adept in comforting people. Lol. Later only make things worst.

ASG, same old thing, moody dunno over what. Told him the solutions to all his problems. But well, lol, people like to feel sad. Weird.

Me, lol, poisoned mind. Filled with regrets bah, but well, lol, im not sadded. SG and ASG said that I like to play SM. I dunno wads SM. I mean, SG and ASG very scared of candle wax. So i demo to them by sticking a candle on my finger.

And they say i got SM 的倾向。Up till now i still dunno, but well, i do have a rough idea now. Its hard to stick the candle, coz my fingers round round like prawns liddat, have to put alot of liquid wax. Its just a demo... so relax. It DOES hurt, and i don't enjoy it lol.

Followed by that, SG went somewhere else. Me and ASG walked back to home, it was late you see, and the Limbang Wind was too tempting. Lol.

Tts all~.

2007-09-23T23:43:00.001+08:00

Some people complain tt my blog song nvr autoplay = they wont go press and play. Fine lol, i put autoplay. Although i dont like. =(.

Happy Birthday to Jianhui (Young Master), QingPing (Young girl).

2007-09-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

Yo, changed blogskin. Some tell me very nice. Hehe. Of course lah, my taste leh~.

And recently someone snatched away my "Korean nickname" liao (ahhhh!!!)

After O lvl got alot of duties ah. First is must kena bbq(ed) by someone, then still got wad gangbang plan. Haiz. Lol.

Im the kind who dont like to listen to ending songs. But this one rlly caught my attention. Rlly nice.

Tts it~. Sorry lah, nth nice to post. Very bored. Everyday sleep sleep sleep. Weekend also zuo bo, everybody got their own plans. Some want study, coz prelims din go smooth. MAYBE, ya MAYBE, i will go studying too. hehe. Tremendous improvement award for Physics!! I MUST GET!

Ok tts all~. Listen to blog song~.

2007-09-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

This is for Soonbeng

Answer The Following Questions:
1) The person who tagged you is?
Dog.

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
Good friends

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
helpful, capable, nice, hardworking, unique (copied)

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Wait for me 30 minutes.

5) The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
Haiz, since friend do until liddat, bla bla bla.. (the rest you know)

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you would?
I would suicide.

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she will have to improve on is?
Become a girl.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Keep quiet.

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
Too many, yet unknown.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Listen to him and help him in Emaths.

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
Well-liked by many, yet over-emotional and rash

And this is for Yishun

Answer The Following Questions:
1) The person who tagged you is?
Lan Bear Bear

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
Good friends.

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
helpful, capable, nice, hardworking, unique (copied)

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Talk to me for 4 hours.

5) The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
Mehmeh~

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you would?
I would suicide.

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she will have to improve on is?
Convince me not to suicide.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Keep quiet.

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
Being too stubborn? (both sides)

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Play mahjong with him.

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
Determined, Brave.

Ok that's all for the unimportant parts. Important part come liao, my post.

Actually i don't know what to post, lol.
只是觉得好闷，好无聊。
嘿嘿。

2007-09-10T22:50:00.001+08:00

Top 5 Birthday Presents You Wish For:
1) Cards with lots of words written
2) Another trip to Sunshine Plaza
3) A clean brain (hehe^^)
4) 1 month holiday
5) Next birthday

Answer The Following Questions:
1) The person who tagged you is?
God.

2) Your relationship with him/her is?
Once good friends.

3) Your 5 impressions of him/her?
helpful, capable, nice, hardworking, unique

4) The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Hand in unchecked Emaths assignment to me

5) The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
Don’t need reply

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you would?
I would what?

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she will have to improve on is?
Dunno, but must find a way to maintain peace.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Keep quiet.

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
Too many, yet unknown.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Saying thanks and sorry. Also help her get A in Emaths.

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
Good and well-liked by many.

12) How do you think people around you will feel about you?
Jialat~

13) The characteristic you love of yourself is?-Deleted previous answer coz it will attract misunderstandings-
Anyway, alot. lol.

14) The most ideal person you want to be is?
What question is this lol. Eh… Mind-reader?

15) For people that care and like you, say something to them.

Something. Lol. Ok lah, thanks. What? You still want more? You got inside this category meh lol. Got ah? Sure or not?

16) Pass this quiz to 10 people you wish to know how they feel about you
1. NIGEL
2. Lendl (no blog)
3. Jianhui (no blog)
4. Wenjie (blog dead)
5.Zuokun (no blog)
6.ZaiYeong(no internet)
7.Jiawei(no blog)
8.Hongwei(no blog)
9.Justin(no blog)
10. Dion (no blog)

Who is No. 6, Zaiyeong, having a relationship with?
Cannot. Im his good friend. Ya. Cannot. I cannot say de.

Is No. 9, Justin, a male or a female?
Biologically speaking, a male. The rest, who knows?

If No. 7, Jiawei, and No. 10, Dion, are together, will it be a good thing?
Yes, children can learn one 俗语, “一山还有一山高”

How ’bout No. 5, Zuokun, and No. 8, Hongwei?
Already stead for dunno how long liao.

What is No. 2, Lendl, studying about?
Cannot. Im his good friend. Ya. Cannot. I cannot say de.

When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3, Jianhui?
Few hours ago.

What kind of music band does No. 8, Hongwei, likes?
Dunno, perhaps Mayday?

Does No. 1, Nigel, have any siblings?
She doesn’t seem to have, but actually have

Would you woo No. 3, Jianhui?
Pui. Anyway he’s unavailable. –Reserved-

How about No. 7, Jiawei?
Pui. Also booked.

Is No. 4, Wenjie, single?
Cannot. Im his good friend. Ya. Cannot. I cannot say de.

What is the surname of No. 5, Zuokun?
Lu.

What is the nickname of No. 10, Dion?
A lot. Got dog, got Aw, got dwarf.

What is the hobby of No. 4, Wenjie?
Watch…..
Cannot. Im his good friend. Ya. Cannot. I cannot say de.

Does No. 5, Zuokun, and No. 9, Justin, get along well?
Very hard to say. Looks like normal friends.
Who knows what happens underground?

Where is No. 2, Lendl, studying at?
School.

Talk something casually about No. 1, Nigel.
Bird, bird-ish, bird-ly, bird-able, bird-ful, bird-a-kuku

Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8, Hongwei?
Yes. Then? Feelings only what lol.

Where does No. 9, Justin, live at?
This one… very hard to say. Normally is BP.
Who knows what happens underground?

Are No. 1, Nigel, and No. 5, Zuokun, best friends?
No. Very weird combination.

Does No. 7, Jiawei, likes No. 2, Lendl?
Cannot. Both are my good friends. Ya. Cannot. I cannot say de.

How did you get to know No. 2, Lendl?
Chairman leh, how can dunno lol.

Does No. 1, Nigel, have any pets?
顾自己都来不及了，还有时间去管同伴吗？
But currently she’s up for adoption. Cheap ^^.

Is No. 7, Jiawei, the sexiest person on Earth?
No will be my answer.
The rest…. Who knows?

2007-09-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

Ok~, bcoz too many ppl ask me what is the last post abt, i wan to clarify~. NO SPECIAL MEANINGS. I mean what the words meant. Yes. Simple as that. Zzz.

Anyway, 我说过了吧，那个选择是不是最好的？现在是不是最好的证明呢？嘿嘿。

虽然说计划有一差。可是，零总是比复数好。

Ah, sorry, only a few people understand.

In fact maybe nobody will understand.

Rewatching Naruto again. Spree number 2. LOL. Addiction to its 3rd opening song~.

Sunshine Plaza is a good place tt you definitely must visit ^^.

2007-09-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

In misunderstandings, alot of times, it's not you don't understand others, or others don't understand you.

It's because there is doubt in between, either from you or others. (Let's take the case of "you")

Strange huh? When you know tt you understand others, yet still doubt.

However, Truth and False are flipsides.

That is just too terrifying.

When it comes to that, you are "lost". Not exactly, coz your "self-protection instict" tells you to doubt.

But recently i thought of something. About Doubts.

Know that when you doubt others, there will be two outcomes. Your doubt is true, or false.

If your doubt is true, congrats, what are you going to do next?

Forgive? Make the culprit pay? Cut off the friendship?

If your doubt is false, congrats, what are others going to do next?

Forgive? Lose faith in you? Cut off the friendship?

Either way it doesn't look nice eh? One of you have to forgive in the end...

Things will hurt if none of you wants to forgive..

You always have to doubt yourself first, in order to doubt people.

Sadly when knowing this, nobody can completely not doubt people.

We've all lived life by not knowing how to do the simplest and best thing.

Sad.

2007-09-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

最近天气变化无常，大家照顾好身体，别感染风寒

冷气别开太冷，别太晚睡，喝多一点水

像我这样，病了，就惨了

鼻子稀里哗啦，烦死人

鼻子静不吭声，更气人

别生病阿，不然假期就泡汤了。

粉丝们要多注意自己，知道吗？

2007-08-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

Everyone seems to be posting about post-exam feelings. Hehe, i shall post too.

First, Gomenasai~~~ For all those who trully believed my World Cup Theory..

Second, I want to take back the "inner genius" thing, hehe. Lol, straight away after tt post, the next paper (physics), flunk diao. But i still think this prelims i will do better than mid-year, hehe.

Ya, good results are always paid off by hard work. I agree. What is meant to be yours will be yours. I jus don haf the fortune, to get good results. And i din do enough work too. Expecting sth good in return meh? Expect is expect lah, but, i dont think i can complain even if i dont get.

Upcoming are alot of events. Budden i guess i will not go for all of them. Ya the 绝世武功 i 练 reverse style, just now 七孔出血, i have to spend time to think about how to master it.

And i may be elected for the 1 month canteen cleaning post. Haiz.

Time goes by~ (yay my song!). Anyway, after exams, i also dunno what to do. Play? Play what? Who? Where?

Ok drifting further and further liaoz. Post exam feelings. Eh... I dare not say i did well, very sia suay. Just want to say tt... i don rlly want to care liao. Haiz. 考了就是考了，后悔也没用。But i still refuse to change my laziness.

不见棺材不掉泪，的确的确。可能见到了也不会掉泪。

Nvm, i nothing to say about exams liao. Yes, i also want to apologise to QingPing. I overdone the teasing. Haiz. Sorry kay?

So many things I've overdone. Zzz. 死性不改。果然还是不懂分寸。

Yes, suddenly feel like thanking people.
Thanks Dion for sendin Ah Du an sms to call me back to see SOMEONE.
Thanks Ah Du for food & lodging & play.
Thanks Shawn for accompanying me even though you wan sleep
Thanks Sb for waiting for me 30 mins

And finally, thanks to all who thinks they deserve it.
LOL. No lah. Thanks everyone for reading up till here ^^.

Question of the day.
真正的坚强
是选择不去管周遭的事，懂得放下，心情又如浮水一样轻松，以微笑面对生活
还是注意，在乎，也不会放下，脑海又如波涛浪水，却又能以微笑面对生活？

2007-08-26T23:16:00.001+08:00

AhhhhhHHHH!!! These days im bloody addicted to songs from Every Little Thing. WTH! SO NICE~~~.

2007-08-22T17:41:00.000+08:00

Yes, so many people posted about exams/mugging. I think i post also bah.

Recently, life is quite calm. Dunno why, the sound of peaceful waves keep on resounding in my mind, although im in a room of four walls, sometimes called "hell". Im reaching success to my "never mind" road. Its not completely nvr mind, still clinging to my old principles, but just, not that easily agitated anymore.

In fact i haven't lost my temper for a year. Hehe (bragging lol)

No lah, i just feel... 无所谓. Don't want to explain what is it. I mean, lol, it's hard to explain. Later break my own words = sia suay lol.

Somehow, i think the "inner genius" within me come out abit liao. Coz.. everyone was like commenting tt the prelims were killers. Then people were mugging like lunatics "to prevent the same mistake". I just feel..."随便lah..". I din study much, compared to mid-year i slacked down even more. But the papers just came as a breeze to me (not saying its very easy lah lol). Naturally, I was able to pen down the things that seemed so new, and it seemed like i learnt from my past mistakes all at one go. It feels good.. budden when the paper is done, everyone were like crowding and discussing the answers. I rlly dunno wad to discuss about, but sometimes i jus join in to share my answers (if they ask). Lol. So shuang over here, like "confirm A" liddat, then in the end flunk diao jiu sia suay. Well, flunk, i oso nothing to say and is quite open to it.

My mind and heart really lightened alot. The worries I used to have were gone, in fact, solved. Some things maybe have a permanent place in my heart. For eg. my mind lighten, i did not XD.

It feels great to finally get my cries heard, to get the trust i longed for. It feels great to have Carlsberg under your bed every week XD. Im a greedy man, not satisfied by the freedom of worries i have now, always wanting more. Hehe.

One more week to go, good luck to everyone.

2007-08-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

Have been severely warned of chinese posting. Haiz, no choice, i 身为最高级华文，在小测验中竟然不及格。Bo bian lah... chinese standard dropping. English standard nvr improve somemore. Haiz.

By the way, Nigel, don't try to tag a comment about the Higher Chinese Test.
Shawn, dont try to talk about Combined Science.
SB, No, i wont get worst for Express/Normal Chinese.

Lol. Ahh what a failure. At home no motivation to revise, go out revise also revise little only. Sad... flunking prelims? Oh man... Haiz, i just don't have the sense of urgency. Bleh~

My piggy bank left with 3 dollars. Upcoming debts:
1. Shawn's Teppanyaki
2. ZaiYeong's Present
3. Lendl's Present
4. Yishun's Present

WTH!!!! Add together, 60 dollars should be have bah? AHHH.
Nvm, what matters is the sincerity. Lol. 4 debts cleared with this sentence? Hehe.

Ah, yes, a successful post in English. Maybe Engrish. Lol.
Good luck for all your future endeavours.
Single pointer, double pointer
JC, Poly
Die, Live

It's boring to lead life by pursuing all these funny things eh...
Mattaku...

Recently, rewatched Naruto. Liked it even more and more. Ahh Kakashi is losing power in the anime... Naruto is now stronger than him. Haiz.

Monopoly is a fun game lol!

2007-08-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

我还依然是那么的冷静。

我原谅他了。。
朋友之间，没什么隔夜仇
我只希望一切能平静地过
该做的事，我想到该怎么做了
还是说，我本来就在做

他说他在我伤口上撒盐
我说，有撒没撒也一样
痛就是痛，没其他的

我还真的不会说话
嘿嘿
老是给人误会
然后又补上自己的解释
人都喜欢认为解释就是掩饰
哈哈，我觉得我不这么认为

不知道，最近我好像变了
变得比较看开
比较会“算了”
想太多？不知道有没有
只觉得好轻松

你说我在逃避吗?
或许吧。。
这不太像我平时的作风
可是事实就是这样

这段时间还是要谢谢
谢谢“熊”陪我讲话四个小时
谢谢“阿杜”热情的招待
谢谢“俊杰”陪我叹气

还要谢谢所有想要帮我的人。
别再帮我了，我不值得。
真的。

2007-08-11T20:42:00.001+08:00

人生真是悲哀

Advice for today:
Before you complain about others,
You go and think about how much others have done for you.

Someone argued with the family over you
Someone forced himself to oversee your bads and only see your goods.
Someone tried to put you on the right track bcoz you are about to bang a wall
Someone gave you the sincere advices when you have got problems

Just.. try to think.
If you dunno how to think,
just see, see if you have done this for tt person.
No?
Haiz, then why u go complain
Worst thing, complain about own assumptions

When you are sick, you want come out.
I dare not reply. Coz i got someone jio me.
So.. i definitely must ask,
see if they want,
then i can ask you right?
Haiz.

Huimin was right.
Help people only if they ask.
I guess, I too 多管闲事
I should have just let you come
without asking, then, you kena scold
not my problem.

Sorry ah, i think too much.
I shldnt think for people animore.
For what?
When they just try to backstab you.
People just like to assume things.
They just cannot believe that the friend beside them
is the one always helping him.

Its ok~. Life's liddat. Never fair.
No matter how much justification you make.
Someone advised me to see facts in different angles.
I hope the someone knows wad it means by that.
Its a big term~
There are just too many facts
and too many angles.

Example,
Justification can be seen as excuses,
can also be seen as the truth.
Well...
Justifying your justification
is also the same.
Tts why sometimes...
Misunderstandings can nvr be cleared
Tts why..
Stubborn people never learn.

I din learn afterall =(.
Holding back wad i compromised to
for One and A Half Years.
And i just gone into bloodlust...
An hour ago.
Sadded. But, well, nvm.

Eh, another thing.
I know its hard to trust someone who lied several times.
Ya, so, I always din get trusted.
No arguments~
Budden, it also isnt rlly nice
To ask someone not to double-ensure
because...
he knew he received 7 lies to his same question

The question tt was repeated
repeated.
Only answer was, "you dont think too much"
along with a hypocritical smile.
Oh well~. Someone told me
Humans are all hypocrites.
Ok....

Haiz, 本是同根生，相煎何太急
If i really did compromise...
why you cannot leh....
Haiz. So sadded.

2007-08-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

Oh. Happy National Day! Lol.

Today went home, slept from 4.30 to 8.30.
After that slept again. from 10.00 to 11.00.

Both... woke up with this terrible dizziness and headache.
Ahhh wth. Lol. Just felt like sharing tt i feel nauseous.
So weird, to write wad i done.

Yes, i realized that i fan jie alot of times recently. Eh, as much as possible, i try to go back to stick by my rules.

过个和尚的生活，其实也不错嘛

Lol. Anyway, I've contracted the disease of Morning Overhigh Night Overdepress Syndrome. MONOS. Ahh today at bazaar was so funny. Ah too knows the series of GL that happened. So high~.

Yes, these days there's reflections going on. Realised that what i did was not rlly much of isolation nor penance, instead its more of 刀. Well, although now is "雨过天晴”, but still, im as cowardly as ever~.

And today got something to share about optimism and pessimism.

Someone dear to you die.
Is it the eternal loss of your loved one
Or is it the freedom of all human worries he gain?

In this set of quote, one represent optimism, one pessimism. Budden, lol, as a very GL person, i like to GL this quote also.

Be it the eternal loss,
Or the freedom he gained,
Within you, you want him to live on.

Eh, why liddat say ah. No reason, just like to chang fan diao. Pessimism prepares you for the worst, but actually plunges you in the worst. Optimism relieves you from the worst, but actually bottles it up and give it all in a blow. So how leh? Lol.

There is no right or wrong method. Worst is worst, wont change. Its just how you want to face it. Kopi-beng or Teh-beng. Simple as that. But still, worst is still worst. 这是小生的见解。If you don't understand, reread the 3 line quote bah.

Lemme share an interesting story with everyone bah.

一名医生为一位病人动手术
不幸的，手术失败，病人身亡
医生难道要为了这样
就为了害死一个人
而放弃拯救其他人的机会吗？

嘿嘿，可是若说那医生
做了很久，以为自己是不错的医生
可后来才知道其他病人对他的不满

医生这时才知道
自己其实根本不了解医学
单凭自己的设想去救人
“放弃拯救其他人的机会”
还能成为论点吗？

医生最多只能偶尔探望病人
最多闲聊几句，或给些建议
要他重归医院
忘记自己杀害了人
欺骗自己，欺骗他人
说自己已经可以救人了
不太好吧？

Don't think too much about it, this story is purposely to put people in series of dilemmas. There is no right or wrong answers, or should i say, nobody know wad is right or wrong in this case. Interesting right? Lol.

2007-08-06T19:34:00.000+08:00

哈哈，好像雨过天晴了！总觉得好快乐，好开心。

也不知为什么，因为昨晚我还在忏悔

也没去多想对或错，也没去想自己留下的烂摊子。

唱了一晚的歌，不好听，但我是想，算了吧。

总觉得，自己不再困扰于不知道该怎么变

今天真的好开心，没什么事发生，但真的好开心

可能，人不想变的时候，就已经变了

不知道，也不想知道

可是我再也不在乎自己有多么矛盾了

再怎么矛盾，我也会继续走

我能肯定地说，我依然会想太多

可是不会去想那些不该想的了吧

对不起，过了那么久还是这样

老实说，我还很怕人恨我

2007-08-04T02:02:00.000+08:00

Actually i wanted to pretend that i din see it. But well, lol, it looks quite fun.

遊戲規則:
１.被點名的朋友要回答所有的問題
２.之後再多加一道題目上去(要留小名)
３.最後再點十個好朋友繼續傳下去(注意～被點名的人不能重複)
４.違規者會倒楣一輩子
５.目標：一百萬人

【ＳＴＡＲＴ…】
＊蟑螂問：你喜歡(暗戀)的人是誰?

没有了吧

＊巍巍問：如果地球即將毀滅，只能救一個人，會救誰?

看到谁就救

＊阿風問：最讓你感動的歌?

Konayuki!!

＊小盈問：你喜歡男生還是女生?

喜欢当男生，喜欢女生

＊ＣＣ問：如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在自己面前，你會做什麼?

帮她盖被

＊莉莉問：人生對你而言，最重要的人是誰?

朋友

＊ＪＯＥ問：今年目前為止做過最後悔的事情?

对不起太多人

＊阿妮問：你是哪裡人?

不要问我从哪里来~~

＊奇兒問：如果還有來生，要當女的還是男的?

男的

＊喬恩問：哪件事情讓你永生難忘?

还没走完一生，所以不知道会不会“永生难忘”

＊小玉問：你最想去哪個國家?

日本。

＊大雄問：覺得自己最大的優點和缺點是啥咪?

优点=说笑，缺点=画不清分寸

＊笨蛋問：你覺得和傳給你的人做朋友怎樣?

请问除了“好”以外，有其他不欠扁的答案吗？

＊胰臟問：如果世上所有人都背叛你，捨你而去，你打算怎麼辦?

死

＊加油問：我帥(美)嗎?(傳給你的人)?

你是谁？（传给你的人），谎话=帅，真话=非常帅

＊那那問：不會想槍斃點你的人嗎?

好问题，只可惜不能老实回答

＊鋼筆問：如果你在人生遭到極大失敗，你會怎麼辦?

逃避

＊ＤＡＮＮＹ問：如果你能變成透明人，你想做什麼?

我想看到自己

＊家宜問：對於這個遊戲感想如何?

挺好玩的

＊喔伊問：你在哪時候哪裡認識傳給你的人?

去年

＊兔子問：目前為止，被幾個男生或女生告白過?

也不知该说真话假话好

＊綠茶問：出生到現在最感謝的人?

每个人我都想感谢

＊Ｐ問：對於好朋友的定義是?

老实，真心

＊皮皮問：如果你被不喜歡的人強吻，而且還是初吻，你會怎樣?

漱口，擦嘴，自杀

＊姊妹問：單身好還是有情人好?

有情人好

＊尼銘問：覺得自己夠成熟嗎?

不会，回答“会”就不成熟了

＊蘋果問：喜歡的動物?

羊

＊快樂問：你快樂嗎？

还好

＊５５６６問：最喜歡的歌手?

Ａｙｕｍｉ

＊布丁問：友情與愛情是不是難以抉擇?

是

＊喵喵問：你會念舊嗎?

会

＊董不懂問：你心情不好時會做些什麼?

把心情弄得更糟

＊小惠問：過去讓你最想挽回的事是什麼?

所违背的承诺，所犯下的错

＊Mr.J問：你覺得我是怎樣的人?

正常人

＊小艾問：對於另一半理想條件？

老实，真心。其他的，我应该可牵就

＊JASON問：你想要什麼死法??

不想给人杀，其他的都好

＊Uno問：.........我想不到要問什麼，你可以幫我問嗎?

可以。＜―――回答了

＊玉米楨問：現在ㄉ你~想減肥ㄇ~?

还蛮想的

＊小黑黑問：你最愛滴人做什麼事情讓你最感動呢?

没有最爱的人。要说朋友的话，很感谢他们纵容我

＊正妹小豬問：你（妳）生日最想收到什麼禮物？

写上好多话的卡片

＊蜜桃惠玲問：如果你是女生,你有勇氣倒追嗎?

有

＊小屁倩問：這遊戲有比我瞎嗎？

这游戏没眼睛

＊卜娘問: 你睡覺是閉上眼睛嗎?

最近练成了“睁眼睡觉大法”

＊ＷＡ問：4cos3θ-3cosθ=?

那要看θ是什么

＊青爭問：如果一個沒有女生喜歡的男生，被喜歡男生的男生喜歡　那沒有女生喜歡的男生會不會喜歡那喜歡男生的男生？

不会

＊阿穎問：請想一個你最想和大家分享ㄉ好事！

现在是凌晨１：４７

＊Kelly問: 夏天最想做的一件事?　　

开冷气
　　　　
＊古屁問：你愛我嗎？

不爱

＊王子問：你的口頭禪是什麼？

不要鸟啦

＊順問:：這問卷可以結束了嗎?

还不行，哈哈

＊勁爆問：你覺得人活著的意義是什麼?

找到最想做的事，即使办不到也无所谓

＊小雞問：死亡筆記本是用來殺人的那麼 "屎王筆記本"的功用是?

写东西

＊ｇｉｎａ問：你對於古典音樂和流行音樂有什麼看法呢？

古典比较有艺术性。

＊巫婆問：會騎車了嗎？

不会，现在上车还早

＊兔兔問：如果你在密閉的空間放了一個連環屁，你會勇敢的承認還是裝死?

我会勇敢地装死

＊小六問：拉完屎　你都用幾張衛生紙？

我环保，不用纸

＊阿嫺問：（以女生的角度）你希望給不喜歡的男生喜歡，還是給可愛ｏｒ漂亮的女生喜歡？

给可爱的女生喜欢，既然是以女生的角度，“可爱的女生”大概是指自己吧？

＊不正經問︰如果一打開廁所門發現裡面有一個人正在打槍，你會怎麼辦？

先办“要紧事”再说

＊大天才問: 對於奧莉薇這三字有什麼看法

有从上看到下，下看到上，左看到右，右看到左的看法

＊冰問:看女(男)孩子先看哪裡?

看。。。。呵呵呵

＊梅洛問:你诚实吗？

中奖名单
1.你
2.他
3.You
4.He
5.Zuokun (no blog)
6.ZaiYeong(no internet)
7.Jiawei(no blog)
8.Hongwei(no blog)
9.Justin(no blog)
10.想回答我问题的人

2007-08-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

Shawn say new blog song not nice. Lol, maybe it doesnt appeal to all.

Changed back to Konayuki. Lol, don't be mistaken, even though i changed my blog song that time, Konayuki is still the best~.

2007-07-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

Ahh. Opera was nice, lol. Although some people laugh bcoz of the "opera slang" (i laughed too lol). Xiang gong~~~. Shared some funny comments with zy and will.

It's not rlly my style if i blogged abt wad i do, lol. Sorry, but i jus dunno wad to say.

Let's just say.. i'm poisoned.

古说人性本善
只惜欠缺自制
染上贪婪私欲
播种罪恶之种

萌生恩怨情仇
一失成千古恨
新芽消失踪影
只见小树一棵

畏惧化为疑义
疑义化为敌意
大树结实壮观
恶魔之果已熟

忍不住啃一口
谁知果中有毒
此毒无色无味
痛处可有可无

若痛，
那乃良心发现
却又后悔莫及
若无，
那乃本性难移
可称可悲之物

是前者或后者
眼看天渊之差
但也仅仅如此
俗说早知如此
那又何必当初

真是罪过罪过
阿弥陀佛...

Lol，watch too much opera le, talk like monk liddat lol. Quite fun to make poem. What i feel like saying / expressing can be all put in a literary work. But its all kok, so dont take it so serious or think too far lol.

Woo, tts all~. Nigel, i wish you luck. At least pawn me in Chinese, k?

2007-07-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

Cleared up several posts in my blog. Coz i din wan see wad i posted for tt period of time.

Nothing much. Prelims coming. Hope everyone can do well and start revision. May the best man win.

No sarcasm, so relax. Plain words just meant what they plainly meant. After Os can relax and do whatever that you always wanted and longed to do le. So, finish up the last chong ci, jiayou bah.

If there's ani way i can help out, name it, and I will help if I can do it. I'm not tt good / smart. So I guess my help will be very limited. I myself will start my engines soon, first shot from the exhaust pipe will be all dust, lol (coz too long nvr use liao mah).

Tts all.

2007-05-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Yeah hi it’s me again. Err… I guess my mood has turn for the better le ba (the storm is over, yay!!!) Finally got clear of my targets for myself (academically). It’s not tt important actually, but I guess I will reach it anywayz.

Today… shall share a few interesting sentences with u ppl ba

“No one can make you feel inferior, unless u let them”

“He who knows not and knows not that he knows not, he is foolish, guide him
He who knows not and knows that he knows not, he is teachable, teach him
He who knows and knows not that he knows, he is asleep, awaken him
He who knows and knows that he knows, he is wise, follow him”

“The saddest life will be one that is filled with three words – could have, might have, should have”

“It’s not the load that breaks you down. It’s the way you carry it”

“Always be a listener
If someone needs your ear,
Assist with others’ burdens
And if you can, give cheer.
But when you’ve sat and listened
Don’t tell what you’ve been told
For a friend who never gossips
Is a friend of purest gold”

Some interesting things I like to share with my fans? Concert coming up soon…. Lol…
Life is bored ah…

夜风来了，来陪我吹着孤独的夜风吧。让我觉得世界上仍然有人在我身旁，陪我吹着这有话说不清的夜风。风，把回忆吹得像一片片飘落的叶子。风，把未曾感觉的寂寞吹了过来。风，依然还是那么冷

Inspirations

2007-04-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah, it’s me again. The new post that all of u are waiting for! Wootz! My Round-the-world concert is going to start! 1 July man! Don’t forget! My fans, I’m just as excited as you all. Let us all countdown in our hearts to the exciting night!

I got nothing much to say. Or should I say, all I wanna say is kept within me, and I dunno to say or not. Well, I guess, for the sake of my fans, I shall open up abit. Let’s talk about my class. Well, it’s the last year, and ppl say, leave no regrets, right? I’m now open to two routes to choose: make the best moments with my cliques, or, change myself to integrate with the class. But I know, I will only find true joy, through making the best with my cliques. Regarding the class, I will still participate in events / activities, and if the call for me comes, I will do my best to organize things, as the Functions Head. I once thought about… building the same bond me and my clique has, with the class. But I gave up that naïve thought now. The class… is reasonably bonded, but if it wants to cross to the clique level, it’s kinda impossible. K la, I go straight to the point. Apart from my responsibility as Functions Head, and as a class member, I don’t feel the need for me to be involved. Perhaps keeping me not involved will help build the class that the class wants. Be it this or that, my beliefs definitely cross with the majority of the class. I just… don’t have the feeling anymore. Somehow I feel that the class is there bcoz that’s the school’s arrangements, the bonding is there because outings were called for. It is unable to cross the bonding level because everyone just choose to lead their own lives, everyone just have different priorities, everyone just cannot open up. I used to get kinda irritated in the past, but now, im kinda numb. I know, there are people in the class who truly hopes for a strong bond, and does not mind sacrificing own time (be it for study, or for clique). I thank and respect you. Not to boast or make false proclaimations, but I once had that mindset too. I cannot help but to compare the level of enthusiasm, openness, of the class, with my own clique. I know there will definitely be a difference no matter what. But at least, the difference gap can shrink, right? It hasn’t ba, I should say. Ppl say, be it u like the class, or numb to it, you still have to show that u still care. Well, if I din care, I would not have even want to be in the class after school. Ppl say, now it’s the time to prepare for our O’s, so the bonding can put apart first, after the O’s, we can have all the fun we want. Sorry, that’s really preicisely why our bonding cant cross the level. Academics are important, that is a fact, yes I understand. See it in this equation:

Academics affect which school u can graduate to, if u get into a good one, u get a lot of courses in the future, it affects ur career, it affects ur future. So, u don’t have enough money, u wont have a good quality life. Realise that it’s all you and you. Nobody else.

Friends are not forever. However they will make an impact on you whether u like it or not. When humans are put together to construct a bond, that is the true meaning of life. Life is not about pursuing all your goals, your aims, your future. Life is not you alone. Even u are gonna get a low pay job, so be it, u die with no regrets, knowing that u understand the meaning of life.

I may sound like a random idiot talking rubbish philosophy and naivety over here. But trust me. The true joy in life, is not to do all the things you want in life. It is to learn as much things that u can. And trust me, what you should put as priority, is not learning from the books. There are far more knowledge than those the books have written. Learn, from others, the goodness of human, the goodness of life. To do that, the only way is to forget that you have to do this. Why? Sounds contradicting right? You see, if u put that in mind, that will be your target. And that will revolve back to the thing that im disagreeing about. Mark out where u are standing, mark out where you want to go. Once you done that, close the lights, and begin your journey in life. Ok basically if u don’t understand the above expressions, it just mean, you cannot keep that aim in mind, or you will never ever be able to make true friends with your true heart. Just go on life naturally, making out your best with your true friends, enjoy it, and you will find yourself learning naturally, without you controlling it.

Having no target brings you to the furthest target. Contradicting eh? Definitely, if you wanna set targets, it will be closely related to your responsibilities, fear, work. That will hinder you from the furthest target. Getting into good JC, good U, emerging out as a pro career man, so what? Realise that you have just successfully wasted 40+ years of your life pursuing something so vague. The feeling of achievement, brings you a smile ,but you are not sure whether to smile or not. Is that what u really want to make out of your life?

Yes, my fans, this is another inspiring speech made by me. Hopefully that will help you find your direction in life. Slowly read ba, perhaps read it over and over again for days. My next post should be coming quite late. Let us wait for the commencement of the concert! Yeah!PS: Don’t forget to bring your lightsticks and my albums to wave!

bREEZE

2007-03-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

Well.. recently quite down (again eh? Lol). Not about those issues that I once were troubled of. More like… Breeze. Yes, breeze. LISTEN TO MY BLOG SONG AS U READ ON. Then u will feel wad im feeling now.

Erm… why breeze ah… Well, just when everyone breezes past me, I feel more and more down. Everyone had their certain direction of life. I have too. But u see… some decide to devote all for CCA, some decide to pia all the way for the O levels. It is good to have a few friends of yours to share the same direction of life eh? Just that my friends go on different directions of life… I am to blame for being a weird person. I tried to learn to devote for my CCA, but I can’t. I cannot say why, bcoz things wont change, so theres no point. For studies… nah, going for that isn’t my cup of tea. I have far more important things (to me). Life is like… a breeze. Breezes past me, leaving me lost. As everyone sway to their direction of wind, I stay stagnant, not knowing where to go. The cold breeze makes me feel empty.Omg, this isn’t like what I am in school man. A superstar shouldn’t expose too much of own emotional struggles. Or else my fans will worry too much for me. Haiz. The coming days there will be bouquets of roses (not white chrysanthemum) and cards to wish me well. Don’t always liddat my fans, don’t waste money on me anymore. The concert ticket oready $899 liao. It’s enough. I don’t want u all to start worrying about me. Certain things… I have to settle it myself.

Perhaps… people are right say that friends aren’t forever. Well, perhaps, not even 5 years. Forever, eternity are just big words that does not fit to what I feel. Pretty sad. To reflect on the timeline, we seemed to have lost a lot of the past “farni events” and “stunts”. Things became… more and more quiet now. The tranquility makes me feel… alone. The world seemed to be pitch black. I’m in the midst, floating in the emptiness, stuck in nowhere. I just cannot accept certain facts, perhaps im stubborn, perhaps im soft, I just don’t want to accept.

Life should be a breeze that you can close your eyes and feel it blow past. Enjoy it. Walk against its direction if you must. Nobody has set a custom way that u must pass. This is your story. Choose the way of no regrets. Decide what is the best for yourself. Surface benefits, Spiritual benefits, Material benefits. Life has no meaning, if you are going the same conventional, “play-safe” way, that everyone else is taking. It’s the risks for your ultimate goal, that makes life… a cooling breeze. This is jus a piece of advice for my fans. If you aren’t my fan, well, you can choose not to follow it =).

2007-02-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

Sick ah, kns. Oh, xing xiang, xing xiang. I mus bao chi xing xiang. Ah, Recently sick liao. 2 days haben eat anithing. 1 day 1 glass of water. Medicine medicine medicine. Till today then can eat porridge porridge. Zzz.

Sorry ah my fans, my shi jie xun huan concert gotta delay again ~~

Heard tt quite some stuff happen when im abesent =.= haiz. Sian. And u all planned the outing liao. Gomene, as Functions Head i failed to attend the meetings. Too frail liao my body, got sick so many days. And absent from sch so many days. Dunno how much i miss out. Sry ah, my fans

Haiz

2007-01-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

Currently very down. Very very down. Ok ok… I try to distract off writing about a war.First thing first, I list out the things he scolded me for, then i will show u how poor his character analysis was. Aiya, common case for adults, dunno how to analyse people, mindread people, jiu act smart, act pro.

He scolded me for:
1) Only do the things i like (Self-centred)
2) Din care about the class (Self-centred)
3) Breakin my promise (to help him) for my own things (Self-centred)
4) Always with my cliques, din engage with class well (Anti-social)
5) Organise activities, and only ask the ppl i like. (Anti-social)

Zun bo, Mello anti-social, self-centred. *Clap clap clap clap clap*. U noe, analysing me to be liddat, is equivalent to deducing that a grasshopper is blue. Clap clap. Wonderful. K la, mayb i should defend myself abit la, although i don really find a need to. First thing first la, Only do the things i like. I dont really get wad he meant by this, but literally, who will do things he dont like. Orh, if he meant, i have the responsibility to do, even if i don like, mus oso do, ok, so, wad example or evidence he got? The only thing he can get, is number 3, breaking my promise to help him carry things. Wtf uncle, chalet starts on the...28th, and the morning of the 28th u ask me go there carry things for u. Reasonable or not, i cannot have my own schedule ah. My schedule certainly overrules ur order. Then? What u have to argue abt this? ORH, u said i ask u to bring some things, so tts why i mus go ah… you can don’t bring de what, and u brought something I din ask for, lol.

Number 2, din care about the class, and number 4, always with my cliques, din engage with class well. Well done well done. Soonbeng they all hear this, they got so fucked up. For several times I prioritise p2 de thing, and gave up my clique de outing. Fine, maybe liddat too small of an evidence. Second thing, I did post about how to improve on the class, its departments’ efficiency, I dunno if everyone remained oblivious to it, but certainly I did try and do something for the class. Lastly, number 5, amusing. Once I organize a “p2 outing”, it will be “p2”, and whole class will be invited, not only the people I like. But of coz, some that are strongly detested by the majority, or even by all, will not be invited. Maybe… it isn’t “some”, but “one”… I dunno, lol. Haiz.

Write for so long, and then, still very sad. The feeling of being ignored by her….so painful, hurts me deeply… I hope she dont hate me. If so… I really dunno how sad I will become. Perhaps its jus some things tt I’ve done wrong, or maybe… I shouldn’t have start all these… There isn’t any mess for me to clear up, yet there is a huge pile of mess. Haiz. Drowned in the sea of sorrow. As time flows by, I will find my shore? Ppl say, who tied the knot mus untie it? So afterall only she can be my buoy in the sea eh? Hopefully… Haiz. The feeling hasn’t fade, though she has done much to show many things, but I jus…. Couldn’t put it down. Stubborn man, yeah, I know. Perhaps things between me and her can turn out well?

我的心情若彩上了颜色，那会是半灰半蓝的颜色
我的心情若拥有了温度，那会是世上最冷的温度
我的心情若变成了天空，那会是闪电交加的天空
我的心情若添上了符号，那会是了结一切的句号

彩虹人生

2006-12-09T03:29:00.000+08:00

A poem i wrote again. quite long lah. lol. read if u want. Press View, then go to encoding, then select unicode, to read chinese. =)

彩虹人生（别误会，这不是歌名，是诗名）

人生起于白之初章
随着章数慢慢增加
颜色变化犹如彩虹
仿佛白光反照七色

可能就在某时某处
目光无法离开某人
冒昧而燃心花怒放
是人生红之第一章

可能就在某时某处
和一群人赴汤蹈火
无私与崇高的友谊
是人生橙之第二章

可能就在某时某处
顿时之间发了横财
心情顿时冲上云霄
是人生黄之第三章

可能就在某时某处
面临失败跌入谷底
家成了心灵避风港
是人生绿之第四章

可能就在某时某处
离别之苦缠上自己
生活味道淡了许多
是人生蓝之第五章

可能就在某时某处
心中立起伟大理想
尽己所能造福人群
是人生靛之第六章

可能就在某时某处
目睹到了乱世之愁
笑中带悲看透人心
是人生紫之第七章

可能就在某时某处
走过了人生七色章
想回到平淡的生活
是人生白之终决章

人生本来就是圆圈
以彩虹来形容人生
美丽却又不属虚构
这就是乐悲观之别

Stupidity

2006-11-25T17:55:00.000+08:00

Afterall... issit just the 15 year old teenage crisis?

I don't know.

I know im stupid

Forgive me

Am i just afraid?

Am i the one whos avoiding?

I don't know.

I know im stupid

Forgive me

How i wish things were back before

How i wish my life was simpler

It isnt simple to get a simple life

I know

but im still stupid

Forgive me.

Letting go is good

Though the results are untold

After the let-go

Whether it's teenage crisis

Or the purest and the truth

The answers will reveal

How stupid

Forgive me

Untold Secrets

2006-11-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

Lol, expecting me to post about someone right? U wait lah hor, lol, wait until ah the earth spin like beyblade also dont have ah..

Haiz, so many fans keep on kajiaoing me, update update, xiang wo zhe zhong chao ji ju xing, dont have time de ah... Everyday i must move house ah, coz the fans check my address check very fast ah, and keep on disturbing me ah. Haiyaya...

Wondering why the song changed from so happy de, become so sad de? My blog song changes with my mood ba... Im fighting a hard battle... Lol.

I cannot talk abt my personal life or where i go, wad did i do, u noe... the fans will camp there and wait for me and disturb me again... 真是的呀.. 人太红就是那么头痛的呀.. 真想回到从前那种平凡人生活呀..

K lah, dao tou lai, i rlly have nth to post abt.... Jiu post abt her la. Since "L" show so many people wad i sent him during the wednesday iceskate, i might as well post it right here.

Although i myself know that i do not have much hope, but i still like to try. (Never see coffin never drop tears), i know, lol. But, I'm liddat. Even if the answer is really negative, i hope we will still be friends, although i myself noe, to her im a friend, to me she's not tt simple. Unexpectedly, she's very strong, and not afraid to face difficulties, living life positively and happily, despite the things around her. But, human is human, there's definitely a time when one becomes soft and weak, about to collapse. I will like to be the one, always there, for her to lean on. I know, im selfish. People say no, and yet i still do this. But, i think, it will be one of my life's deepest regret, if i choose to walk off and dont stay beside her. 我愿意用我的命去守护, 为了她, 我可以连命都不管, 对我而言, 拿她的命和我的命比起, 我希望我微不足道的这条命, 能够为她做一些事。

I was thinking.... it's better if she said no. I know, im not good enough, lol. For the first time 我学会自知之明。She has better choices, definitely. And even if she has noone in mind, it's better for her to pursue her studies for now. Either way, it's good for her. I will try hard to tell myself tt it's better for me too. As Joanne says, “我要坚强的活下去”。我会的，别担心。Anyway, i know she wont read my blog, so tts why i dare to write these, lol. For my fans out there, of coz, i trust u. I will like to walk the way i want to walk, so.. I hope my fans dont intefere. If I need your help, definitely, i will call you up, dont worry.

Lastly, thank you 二弟，二弟的好朋友，大哥，大嫂，红色玫瑰，我的女儿，还有SUNNY。我会回到从前的我的，别担心。

My Class

2006-11-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

Joanne requested for me nt to blog all those depressin stuff or chim stuff, casual yi dian. Most of my classmates de blog all posted abt P2. So of coz, i must follow the trend. In addition, my fans all hope for me to post something new. So of coz, i must answer to their demands, 谢谢粉丝的支持!! Aniway, since my blog too depressing, so i put a relaxin song, for ppl to calm down. =)

Chooi Teng : The dancer who always tease me one lah, wah lao. On par with me, Li hai lor..... Get into Trilingual digest lor, shuang lor... lol

Xiu Ming : Xiao Song's GOOD FRIEND. Voice very deep leh.... K lah, quite nice lah

Lin : My ho peng you, if compare among all the girls, then is my very ho peng you. Justin Tek Hong. She ah.... problem alot. Always show me she's sad, then refuse to tell me wad happened, haiz.

Xintian : I say harlo, say yo, reply me "zuo mo?" Help her nvr say thank you lor. Have special pian jian on me, dunno why. Lol. K la, still will help me sometimes, good.

Yi Xian : The study and work hard type who has devotion towards Volleyball and Christianity. Er, abit over sensitive, and over considerate.

Peiyi : Bear kerm. Also study study type. Loanshark in class. Nvr pay class fund, then she will use her stare to make u pay, har har har! Lol.

Natalie : Han Su Yin, Han Swing. Pro artist. Generous too, treat me slurpee de, hehe. Will suddenly gives funny funny de comments.

Illy Dinah : Fashionable, trendy, hip, very smart.

Izni : Zaiyeong's favourite talk partner. She's friendly and easy to talk with, also quite enthu

Janice : Tag team with Chooi Teng to tease me. Always blur blur one. Abit worry too much.

Le Ting : Always fight (as in verbal and friendly fight) with me, suan my Humanities. Mus be more carin towards other ppl feeling, I may not do much, or show much reactions, but other ppl will mind it alot. =)

Rui Yan : Act cute. Like to go home. Talks in a very funny tone. Free charge for MRT / Bus.

Carlyn : Another problematic. Ladder. You lie to me ah, aiya, impossible de lah, im M leh, how can get deceived. Free charge for MRT / Bus

Maureen : Always call me fishball. Dunno much ba, she jus enjoys company with Shimin, in class, Madelene. Good artist too, help us design banner, hehe.

Melissa : Full name = Melissa Owen. Good friends with Natalie and Xintian. Helpful. Honest.

Nina : Dion's favourite. Wa lao i rlly failure, know her for 3 years still dunno wad to talk abt her. Her English is pro.

Nuraisha : Hongwei's favourite. Very supportive and outgoing. Mild violence. Rather enthu in class. Good.

Yu Hong : CHeeeerrry ( i mean her hairstyle). Always associated with DT / I. Also Free charge for MRT / Bus. Always with Zhiyu. Chem Pro.

Madelene : SORRY!!! TT DAY I RLLY DIN MEAN IT! Aiya, i say people not careful with words, actually i worst. Haiz. Er, associated with Alvin. English Pro. Shy with Chinese.

Jasmine : Responsible vice chairman and emaths rep. Super helpful. Pro with Html. Outgoing. But rather quiet. Must talk more.

Siti Aisyah : Amina. Very smart. Looks like typical housewife (lol).

Fairus : Er, always busy with DMC. Very cheerful. Good friends with Aisyah? I dunno. Lol.

Diyana : I know her even lesser... also quite fashionable.

K E R R O N G : Sms me to scold me straight in the face (kind intentions, i dont mean quarrel). Very honest, but sometimes, over sensitive, over considerate.

Zhi Yu : Always busy with DMC. The bowling alley manager of Palm Garden (Jkin, i meant, help the bowlers of P2 book one)

Tiffany : Typical sunny girl. Nice to talk to.

Amirul : Cool ah this guy. Very into Anime and Japan. Abuses the word "emo". Humanities pro. Candle guy.

Alvin : Wa hot ah this guy, real hot and noisy when comes to class, but inside he's quite fragile and emotional. Meh Meh Version 2. It's jus tt he's abit shorter and fitter and into soccer.

Dion : 1st thing, Free charge for MRT / Bus. Always kena bully or teased, dunno why. Quite cool, quite shuai, and shld be a good talkin partner

Justin : Abuses the word spastic. Not bad lah, in soccer. Very into Kingdom Hearts. Slightly pervertic.

Lendl : Our very helpful responsible chairman who owns a Mercedes! A CAR of his own! Lol, jkin. Too nice liao lah he. But he always go out with his *** friends. I dont mean Yikai and Raymond =).

ZuoKun : Very quiet on the surface, but everything he has something short comment abt. Quite lame lah. Tallest. Best GK. Hardworking.

Afiq : Super smart. 100% based on self knowledge and talent, and managed to pass so many subject. Very friendly.

Hidayat : Pro in soccer. Very funny. Gambling Soldier, hehe, always get caught by me. Not bad in bowling too. Volunteers to work, like a big brother, in cls activities.

JiaWei : Jia Jia Liang Teh. Jiawei, i know i very shuai, but pls don keep saying it. K lah, actually u on par with me lah, since we friends so long liao, then i regard u as equally shuai lah, haha. Pro in studies, responsible too.

William : Cool sia. The cool ducky with the farni hairstyle. Same as Xin Tian, always reply "Zuo mo?". K la, not very the study type, quite outgoin.

Zaiyeong : One of my best male friend in class. Always supporting. But abit slacky, and less participative in "political" isuses in our class. Nice to talk to, be it serious talk or casual talk.

Huan Song : Our functions head, the Auntie... Very knowledgeable and interested in religion and arts. Quite nice to talk to also.

Zach : BaBoon... very helpful, often puzzled over why people can turn a closed eye towards needy people. But he's abit gullible, six frags in a row lehzz..

Hongwei : Rich Rich. Goes for the extraordinary and "Xuan" things (xuan means eye catching). Humorous. Cheerful. Helpful.

Weiliang : Ticokia. Very outgoing, and very nice to go out with. He is very sad over the class, bcoz some people in the class are too practical. He feels tt way.

Fatin : Nice to talk to also. Good friends with Aisyah. Rather smart. Helpful.

Maybe...... i explain abit more on the practical part ba... i do not have exact evidence to prove tt u r practical, but so long u know it, pls feel guilty. U are not to judge ur friends by academic results. If you think their attitude towards work is bad, and they do not have the student mindset, and u are scared they will influence u, pls do not make any friends, for u do not deserve to. U r jus a selfish and stupid fella who shld go live on ur own. Yes, if u think u r right to say they provide a bad influence, but SO WHAT? SO WHAT, IM ASKING! Whos the one who does nt have the stability to withstand the influence? WHO?!

If u think "i admit i don haf enuf stability, so the best way is i do not get close at all", do u know how painful it is to be rejected by people? U think he asked for it, and u think u r right to think liddat? That is why i say u don deserve to haf friends. If so, ur friends now have problems, and u jus escape, bcoz u wont get dragged inside? Utterly selfish. Everybody is selfish in this world, i know! That does not give u the excuse to be selfish to that extent. Everybody is selfish in this world, the pun that lies here is, not everybody is VERY selfish, or UTTERLY selfish in this world! U simply misunderstood it.

In desperate circumstances, scientifically speaking, food air and water are the neccessities. But, if i were to make a comparison between "academic results, the future ahead" and "acceptance by others", acceptance will be ranked much much MUCH higher. U jus don understand how much damage u r inflicting, how u have mould ur friend's mindset. I dunno if such ppl exist in class, but since Weiliang mentioned it, i think it's still nt too late for me to talk abt all these.....

Sorry lah, my fans, my lao mao bing come again, talk depressedly and chimly. Sorry.....

2006-09-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

K lah, SINCE so many ppl requests, wo jiu continue blogging ba. Shall i make it a more relaxed blog which talks abt my life? I dunno, tts not really my style. But SINCE so many people, so many of my fans keep requesting, haiz, bo bian lah.

Talk abt today lah. Went to see doctor, so nvr go NP. I nvr pon, i went to see doctor. And alot of ppl borrow full U items from me, so, be grateful to me ba, wahaha. U see lah, it is really nothing to talk abt what. Everyday dou shi go school, read book, sleep, eat, go home, eat. No life la...and Im also not good in expressing myself, neither do i like to talk abt myself. But SINCE so many of my fans keep on requesting, how can i reject? Haiz, that's the bei ai of having so many fans. Everyday want autograph from me, everyday ask me this, ask me that, now zhui dao my blog, like tabloid reporter liddat. Can dont so like me or not? Like also mus have a xian du one wad. I know i all way versatile, haiz, sad ah.

K lah, talk abt NP again. In the past, I somehow have passion for NP, I somehow feel that I have my place, and I like what i do, in NP. But as things go on to Sec 3, things changed alot liao. Somehow.... I feel that the bond is incomparable to what's in the past.There seemed to be something lacking within. This something, somehow keeps telling me that, NP veery sian, very lifeless. I guess the HO is may be part of that "something". I really lost thaat passion. Even a promotion test, i also hesitate about going or not. I dunno why. It might be the change in CIs too.

Ah, siao liao. My fans request for something humourous then i keep talkin abt something they dont understand much, and it's not funny summore. AH, talk abt my homework lah. Still owe Ms LSF alot of hw bah... 2 zuo wens, recently, still gif us 1 more, so in total is 3. I think.... late hand in, zhen de is nvm de, since u're not going to return to me so early, why hand in so early. Summore, late hand in gimme more time to think, produce better work. I guarantee lor, more than 90% of the ppl who hand in on time, dou shi hand in for the sake of handin in de. I dont lor, I put my own emotions and devotion into the zuo wen itself, and put what i think straight inside. Trust me, what the teacher wants to see, is not what she expects, coz if she expects it to be liddat, it means it's jus any ordinary, common work. But people jus hav this mindset lah, if the student dont hand in work on time, condemn them as bad students. Well, i dont care. Imagine, what delightful irony it will be, to prove these people wrong. A student who hands in work late, keep getting chased, yet, the work is of quality. Why not hand in work of quality, yet on time, u say? Im not so pro to do that lah, i need time to think, for inspiration. U can lah, i cant though.

This brings us to the next topic. If, u behave well, u r of good character, only because u want to avoid trouble, u want people to have good impression of u, i directly shoot u, u r a shallow hypocrite. Say what i like, yes, i am goin to do so. If u r good in nature, no matter how hard u try to be evil, people will still know that u r good. If u r evil in nature, no matter how hard u try to be good, people will know u r evil. That is the whole point, but who exactly cares? Everyone is jus concerned abt leading their own life, achieving in their own work. Friends have become tools that kill ur boredom, that is all. U help them, bcoz adults teach u to do so since young, bcoz the CME textbook says so. U completely do not have a mindset of your own, or rather, u only have a mindset that contains yourself, self-centreed, in another words. I am silly, yes i noe, for noone will be able to do what i request.

Sian. Nothing humoruous again. Mus disappoint my fans. Haiz, but i prefer to put out all my sorrow in the blog lah. Humour is jus not my style. Im never good with words.

酒杯

2006-04-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

BY THE WAY, ON TOP OF UR WINDOW, PRESS VIEW, GO ENCODING, CLICK ON UNICODE (to see the poem).

诗人的酒杯不装酒,
而是装满千思万愁,
而是装满七情六欲,
而是装满阵阵诗情,
也是装满无数牵挂,
也是装满孤独滋味,
却干干脆脆地干了!

军人的酒杯不装酒,
而是装满思念情怀,
而是装满爱国情操,
而是装满枪林弹雨,
也是装满无数牵挂,
也是装满孤独滋味,
却抛开一切地干了!

罪人的酒杯不装酒,
而是装满声冤之意,
而是装满受屈之苦,
而是装满知错之悔,
也是装满无数牵挂,
也是装满孤独滋味,
却情不自禁地干了!

为何我酒杯不装酒,
而是装满诗人之愁,
而是装满军人之悲,
而是装满罪人之冤,
也是装满无数牵挂,
也是装满孤独滋味,
却无法爽快地干了....

诗啊诗

2006-03-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

Wa lao, the poem i received made me want to compose one myself too. Found tt quite a bunch of u can write good poems (some arent actually tt good, just put there to make up the numbers i guess) BY THE WAY, ON TOP OF UR WINDOW, PRESS VIEW, GO ENCODING, CLICK ON UNICODE (to see the poem).

青春

青春时的那志愿,
青春时的那斗志,
青春时的那情感,
青春时的那时光,
青春, 那锦绣年华

失败无足于吹倒那志愿,
悲愤无足于熄灭那斗志,
欲望无足于冲淡那情感,
时间无足于淹没那时光,
青春,那花样年华

我不望九五自尊,
我不望天下英雄,
我不望金榜提名,
我不望文武双全,
我只望尽力而为.

我或许注定失败,
但我用我的信念,
战胜命运的安排,
牢抓紧生命之线,
爬上渴望的天堂.